No going back to Past

Aug 21
Woke up around 5 am and remember that its off day. So slept back and wake up upon alarm at 7.20 am.
Did one cycle of Surya kriya and asanas. I can now touch forehead to two knees much more easily. Overall good improvement.
Breathing in arashidharna posture was good.
Shakti was great. I can now see violet flame in Kapala Bhakti. Shambavi was good too. Towards the end contented silence in arashidharna posture. Lovely. Sat for quite awhile. Amen. Thanks for the tools.
Sadhguru said without Sadhana there is no way out. But Sadhana is not the only way. So true.

Father, our event not going well. I can only reach out to some people. I informed Z too cos he got many friends.
Father, for a moment I hesitate but then I tot it is over. He and I have to reach a new communication platform as we might meet in future.
Especially when I know his wife will come in future. Might as well get it over, be natural. I also got Nine of Diamonds. I am good at let go too once mind is made up.

Even yesterday Mind starts to create negative tots but I said it is over. Even if he had betrayed me since day one, the outcome is the same. No need to go backward. What I know for sure is he is not right for my Jupiter, for me to grow my spectacular self.
Since no reply from the msg I sent to two friends, my mind start something but I just stay here.
I didn't come so far to be so easily swayed.
I m fine.