The past is gone..now I m making baby steps forward

Jul 29 aft 1
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Today card
Eight of Clubs
The card of mental power, the ability to focus one's mind on a goal or objective and see it through to successful conclusion. This power is usually applied to some mental or educational task. It bestows the power to overcome all problems by focusing one's tots and it usually occurs when there is something we need to learn.

Soul
Amen. No wonder I stick my gun out and be honest with P.

Afternoon
Now sitting in ground lobby. Tot of Z arises. Old memories. Look like matter on P resolved for now and mind need something to occupy it.

Had a good Shoonya. Feel rested.

1. Issue
Possibilities
U r at a point where a world of possibilities is open to u. Because u have grown more loving towards urself, more relaxed and at ease, u can recognise possibilities as they present themselves, sometimes even before others can see them. Because u r in tune with ur own nature, u understand that existence is providing u with exactly what u need.

Soul
Alas I now accept my role in Isha as my underlying issue is ego, my mind.

2. Internal influence
Exhaustion
A man who lives through conscience becomes hard. A man who lives through consciousness remain soft.
Life isn't about a business to be managed. It's a mystery to be lived.

Soul
Yes. I tore one card today. Admitting to P that I feel small and taking responsibility for the friendship. We will be working closely and so need to have a good one. 

3. External influence
Playfulness
The moment u start seeing life as non-serious, a playfulness, all the burden on ur heart disappears. All the fears of death, of life, of love - everything disappears.
When the page of Fire enters ur life, it is a sign that u r ready for the fresh and the new. Something wonderful is just on the horizon, and u have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it with open arms.

Soul
This morning when my mind was working. I observe it and I waived it off cos inside I was truly feeling good. No need to activate defense mechanism.

I m looking forward to new possibility.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Adventure
Truth is a radical, personal realisation. U have to come to it. The search for personal knowing will help u to grow. U can go astray and u can get lost, but there is the only way to grow, to accept the challenge of the unknown is the only way to grow.

Whenever we move into the new and unknown with the trusting spirit of a child, innocent and open and vulnerable, even the smallest thing of life can become the greatest adventure.

Soul
I m ready.
Finally I felt the past of Z is now behind me. I can now move on to new things.

5. Resolution
Moment to moment
The past is no more and the future is not yet; both are unnecessarily moving in directions which don't exist. The only right person is one who lives moment to moment, whose arrow is directed to the moment, who is always here and now. And u can be in the present only if u have no ambition.
Life is a great ocean in which u can play if u drop all ur judgements, ur preferences and the attachment to the details of ur long term plans. Be available to what comes ur way, as it comes. And don't worry if u stumble or fall, just pick urself up, dust urself off, have a good laugh and carry on.