Gaining courage to assert what I want with Z

Aug 29 Eve

Father, E wanted to see if I am happy with me quitting the job and tot I may change my mind as I am a good addition to his team. I said I am. He said he understand as things will grow more and I will be too stressed.

Father, I am a Nobody now.

NN in Taurus
These people are learning that in this lifetime their destiny is to risk asserting their own needs in their rships and to "train" the other people to satisfy them. And when they do, it makes their lives and their partners' lives much happier and fulfilling.

Soul
I can do this at work and its a win win situation. I must learn to do this in rship.

NN in Taurus
They need to strengthen their sense of self worth and reconnect with their own personal values. They can accomplish this by focusing on the people and activities that bring them inner feelings of satisfaction. Rather than compare themselves with others, their "right path" is the direction of whatever brings them comfort and fulfillment. They make sure they set aside enough time to engage in these pursuits - solely to nurture themselves

Soul
I have always been in crisis mode, validating my self worth. I no longer need to do that. I just want to rest and feel contentment. I just want to be at ease. I am happiest learning and exploring ME.
That's why I want the 2 off -days.

NN in Taurus
When they create this boundary by making themselves important and devoting time for themselves, it strengthen them in every area of their life. Then they will be able to connect more intimately with others because they won't only be depending on their partner to meet their needs and they won't feel resentful if they don't get exactly what they want from them.

Soul
Okie. Let's focus on me. Then I be balances.

NN in Taurus
They must also set limits on how much time and energy they give to others. Their compulsive drive to "shore up the leaks" for their partner no only drains them but also rob their partners of the independence they need to built.

Soul
I do this at work but not for non-work. I must learn to apply.
I guess that's why I quit new company as they erode on my boundaries.

NN in Aquarius
Learning to receive love - How to be open to others demonstrating their love in their own way. (That is Z's long range card for this year - Seven of Heart)

They feel if they let go of the control and let someone in, they won't have enough creative power to manifest the things they want.
Yet it is crucial that they learn to let go and open their awareness and their heart to others, because this is not a "do it urself" lifetime. Their life won't really work and they will not be able to create true happiness if they stay isolated in the center of their universe.

They also fear that if they full open to another and receive the love currently offered to them, they will lose the passion they seek - the ideal love partner.

Soul
Reading about Z doesn't bring much effect on me now.

Sept 16
That is exactly what Z told me when he said he cannot afford to have any commitment as it will upset his plan for wealth.
He also question my love and said that if I love him, I will intro business to him, give him business from my company. I told him I am not comfortable with that. To me, to be able to do my job well, is independence from all, no personal interest.