Vulnerability leads to Invulnerability...a paradox

Aug 24 Eve

Diamond Heart - book 3
The fact and the awareness of our vulnerability are part of what pushes us to realise that we are the reality. Because we are aware of our vulnerabilities, we don't rest; we want to find complete security. We want to feel that we r not vulnerable. We want complete invulnerability. And if u really look and find complete invulnerability , it is the supreme reality.

Soul
It is because of my vulnerability that I wanted self-mastery. That's what started me on my journey.
Before that was auto self-control. But that didn't work.

Diamond Heart - book 3
U can find the supreme reality only through ur human nature; u cannot find it through resisting ur human nature. If u resist the vulnerability of ur human nature, u'll go backward in ur evolution.

If u allow urself to become vulnerable to ur vulnerability, if u become more human, more transparent, more permeable, then u move forward in ur humanity and become more human.

We have seen that vulnerability allows us to be influenced, to be penetrated, to be affected. And we usually see this as bad, because we believe that many influences are dangerous or hostile to us. So, we reduced our receptivity. If however, we allow ourselves to be influenceable, which means allow our vulnerability, then we will discover that what we are primarily influenced by is our own deeper inner nature.

This tells us something about the personality. The personality tries not to be influenceable. It wants to be the influencer, the actor, the doer, the one who is in control, the one who directs. It wants to do that even in relationship to our Essence.
Th personality wants to experience the Essence, but it also wants to still be in charge. It tries to do this by eliminating its vulnerability, by saying no to it just like it does everything else. It makes itself opaque.
But if the personality understands what vulnerability actually means, then we become receptive to our deeper nature, and it acts on us. We r no longer the actor; we are a permeable membrane. We r acted upon, we are penetrated by our nature, we allow it to come out. The less defended and opaque the personality is, the more it is permeable to Essence. And as Essence manifest through the personality - as it permeates, influences it, as the personality becomes completely one-hundred percent vulnerable to our truest nature - we begin to see that there is no difference between them. We experience unity.

Vulnerability is needed for awareness and objectivity, for objective consciousness. This is because objective consciousness means awareness and understanding of exactly what is there.

When u r loving, u still feel at the mercy of everything. The step beyond that is to become even more vulnerable, and then u r completely invulnerable. So we are seeing how love can lead all the way to complete vulnerability and thus to invulnerability.

Beyond love is the supreme reality, which is beyond feeling or no feeling.
If u are very loving, u can't help but feel vulnerable. If u allow to feel, ur heart is completely open.


Soul
Thanks to Z. He didn't want to open to me. He didn't want to feel vulnerable with me. Hence I had to open myself all the way to him.
By opening completely to Z, I too have open up to Existence.
Amen