Sexual energy can be turned into energy to make money

Sept 26
Father, had an erotic dream yesterday. I had to choose between 2 guys and in the end I went for the former one. It was so pleasurable that I think I woke up. Most likely because I no longer have a partner and my body misses it.

As I was driving, I was smiling. I need not go to new company anymore.

On hata, I am still not motivated. Will see.

Osho
Sex is natural.
Sexuality means a perverted state of sex energy. It becomes poisonous.
The second poison is anger and the third is greed. The three poisons combined together, this unholy trinity, creates ur ego. If sexuality disappears, u will be surprised that anger disappears - without any effort on ur part.

Anger simply means that ur sexuality is hindered. And sexuality creates greed; greed is a form of sexuality, it is a perverted form. Money becomes ur object of love because society does not allow any other kind of love. It allows money, power; they can become ur objects of love. It helps to change ur object of love. First it changes ur sex into sexuality.

Soul
Mmm. Tot of Z. Sex was always natural to him. In the last 1 year, maybe becos of me, he want to switch off his sex and it turns into pornography. For the first time in his life, he was into porno. He then switched it to money. He keep on saying he transfer the energy from body and heart to the mind.

Osho
Man's sexuality is more repressed than woman's for the simple reason that man has to earn money, has to become famous, has to become a politician and etc. Naturally, from where is he going to get all this energy to be president? There is only one energy; u don't have many energies in u, mind u, u have only one kind. Now if u want to have more money or more power, u want to be the prime minister, then u have to take ur sexuality and channelise it.

U can divert ur sexual energy; then money, power, prestige, they become ur sexual objects. And u can talk about morality and discipline easiy; u can teach others how to control their sexuality very easily but in fact what u r doing is nothing but a perversion of sex.

When sex become perverted, love becomes hatred. Nothing is wrong with sex, but everything is wrong with sexuality. Sex should be allowed a natural flow. Yes, one day, if u live it naturally, transcendence happens, but it is spontaneous, it is not celibacy. It comes through celebration.

Soul
Exactly on Z. I wonder about myself too.

Osho
Just silently watching all the processes of the mind - tots, memories, imagination, dreams, desires - a realisation happens, a realisation that: in his mind, mind is not.

When u watch the mind clearly, silently, the mind start disappearing. More watchfulness, less mind. One percent watchfulness, nine percent mind. Nine percent watchfulness and there is no mind in the mind. All tots are gone, the mind is absolutely empty. And in that emptiness, Tao comes in, rushes in. U have created the right space for it.

Soul
Suddenly tot of doing samyama this Nov.
My mind is bit too much. Might as well straighten it now. On hata, I can do.

(Sept 30 - nope won't run off. Will face loss of Z and loss of Isha. But will consider Hata in Dec)