Z has his own path to follow

Sept 23

Father, as I was swimming. I had tots of Z. He is a Jack of Diamonds, a salesman card. I also saw the price of BMW535 which is nearly 600k. The insecurity wells up. He is creating more debt. Looks like he hasn't work on his lesson.

It took him 2 years to freed himself from the card debts. Anyway, let's not dwell on it. If he is back, means I got to learn. If not, means my money issue is over. I am now not overly felt the need to take up any lesson.

I love him but let's not forget what I see. I can understand him getting a loan of 500k for his business but not a loan of 500k for the car. That's increasing his commitment by 1 million. Guess that's like W who also got a BMW.

Maybe I am negative but fear comes up. And I want my 2nd part of life to be lived freely. I worked so hard to get my financial freedom, so no need to shackled with a partner with so a heavy commitment.

Anyway, let's see. Let's not look for 'trouble'.

After 2 hours, a tot came. That's his dream and not mine. He too would think my dream is scary. Just like I would think he stunt my dream, the same thing he also tot of. That's why he said I don't want him to grow, which translated to I don't love him.