Life repeats itself cos mind is always seeking

Aug 22 Aft

Father, I got my wish. I will start in old company on 1 Oct. I am now prepared for my new journey. On Z, it is up to him. I have resolved one of my issue which is work at new company and now Z's unwillingness to commit us. Actually we are both committed to each other but only thing is not open.

Father, King of Spades. I am not sure of new financial enterprise but I am sure of new values. I valued my self-time and my rship.

1. Issue
Conditioning
Unless u drop ur personality, u will not be able to find ur individuality. Individuality is given by existence; personality is imposed by the society.

Soul
Well, definitely waking up and creating my life the way I want it to be.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
Guilt
This moment! This herenow is forgotten when u start thinking of achieving something. When achieving mind arises, u lose contact with the paradise u r in.

Soul
Yea, I have got 2 free days. I want to appreciate the time off rather than trying to see how I can turn it into another valuation.
On Z, I am going to feel liberated cos I told Z instead of focusing on outcome. With my mind, I can only project failure.
Let me just focus on the fact that I overcome my lack of self-confidence on me being lovable.
Z's today is Ace of Heart - new rship and me is Queen of Spade - self-mastery. Both are conducive.

3. External
Ice-olation
Either u r in existence or u can be in the self. If u r flowing, the self cannot exist. In love, the boundaries disappear; in joy also the boundaries disappear, because joy is not cold.

Soul
I found my joy.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Comparison
Comparison brings inferiority, superiority. When u don't compare, all inferiority, all superiority disappears. Then u r, u r simply there.
U just need to see whether u r fulfilling ur own potential in the best way u know how.

Soul
Yea, I m unique.

5. Resolution
Change
Life repeats itself. Life is continuously changing, evolving, dying and being reborn. All opposites play a part in this vast circular pattern.
And it goes on and on, but u don't see the pattern. Once u see the pattern, u can get out of it.

Soul
Well, I did see the way my mind always seeking for the next thing. True contentment is not easy. Anyway, let me handle this issue with Z first. On the work, I am now fine.