Last 4 days to go in new company

Sept 18 Aft
Father, faced 'attack' from E, as expected. Anyway, it is part of my role to confront and withstand.

Now just focus to do my part for next 4 days.


1. Issue
Beyond Illusion
The space between the two eyes has opened, revealing the lotus of spiritual unfoldment and the rising sun of awareness.

Don't look outside for what is real, but to look within.

Soul
Another 4 days. Just focus inward and I can pass through.

Anyway, I just make up with E. I think we got 'stronger' after this. I guess that is Seven of Heart today. E and I have our differences but the rship is still intact.

I also confronted Sl for her tone of voice. She is not so likeable lah. I put up with it cos I am her friend and part of me feel guilty of leaving her too. But she is just like a Parent - either "teaching" or 'nurturing'. She is a true Parent.


2. Internal influence
Intensity
It is a dark night, but with the intense fire of inquiry u are bound to come to the sunrise. U have to find ur innermost core on ur own, with no guide, no guiding scriptures.
U r likely to create ripples in the waters around u. Some will feel uplifted and refreshed by ur presence, others may feel threatened or annoyed. But the opinions of others matter little; nothing can hold u back right now.

Soul
I am intense, that's for sure.

3. External influence
Suppression
Literally tied up in knots. His light still shines within, but he has repressed his own vitality trying to meet so many demands and expectations.

Soul
I just want to end this and move forward. Like I told E, I cannot take the pace.
I don't even feel I want to do hata. But Father, where am I extreme like Z??
Well, P said I am extreme on my yoga practices and egoless on Z.
Yea, perhaps I was egoless, that's why Z was so ego and we maintain for nearly 2 years. I can put up with a lot, if its the things I want. Normally I have healthy parameters, but with work, rship with Z and yoga practices, I go all the way.

4. What is needed for resolution?
New Vision
Now u r presented with an opportunity to see life in all its dimensions, from the depths to the heights. They exist together, and when we come to know from experience that the dark and the difficult are needed as much as the light and easy, then we begin to have a different perspective on the world.
By allowing all of life's colours to penetrate us, we become more integrated.

5. Resolution
Experiencing
The thrill of communion, the gentle touch of our connectedness with all that surrounds us.

Soul
Amen.