Why we reject love?

Sept 2

Today, I did my walk. It has been a gap of 3 weeks. I found myself light on my feet. This is despite my face swelling at max. I can walk faster. Infact, I finished 5 min earlier.

I found out that the Blue mineral toner was the culprit. I should have expected it as it sting when I used the blue toner. I compounded the effect when I use the blue toner again on Saturday.

My skin is better after the medication and also the soothing mask by my facial center. I should have gone to them yday or even on friday. Anyway, guess my wish was answered. I got my skin crisis and didn't have time to think of Z. Anyway, need not think. Don't waste my time on what he will do. I already know what I will do. Instead of ignoring I will just tell him that he has rejected me too many times. It is time for him to win me over. He to tell me why he went into hibernation. He promised me to give me a msg if he needs to go into hibernation instead of the absolute non-response.


Osho
How can u think that somebody may be able to love u? It is better to reject it because sooner or later the person who is offering you his love is going to discover ur reality, which is very ugly - just a long, long burden of sin. And then that person is going to reject u. To avoid rejection, it is better to reject love. That's why people don't accept love.
It is the fear of rejection that does not allow u to receive love.

Soul
Tot of myself, tot of Z.

Osho
Knowing urself, u will know ur existence. But the taste and the fragrance of ur existence will give u the courage to go a little deeper into the existence of others. If ur own existence has made u so blissful, it is natural longing to enter into the other mysteries that surround u; human mysteries, mysteries of the animals, mysteries of the trees, mysteries of the stars.
And once u have known ur existence, u r no longer afraid of death

Soul
Yea.

Osho
Those who have known themselves know without any doubt that they are eternal beings. They have died many times, yet they are alive.

Once u know there is no death, all fear disappears. The fear of the unknown, the fear of the dark - whatever the form, all fears disappear. U start for the first time being a real adventurer. U start moving into different mysteries that surrounds u.
Existence becomes for the first time ur home. It is ur mother; u r part of it. It cannot drown u, it cannot destroy u.
The more u know it, the more u will feel nourished; the more u know it, the more u will be.
Then u can give love because u have it. And then u can receive love because there is no question of rejection.

Soul
Yea. Just focus on knowing myself. The rest will take care of itself.