North Node in Taurus (allowing Z to be..and me to respond)

Aug 26 Eve

Our true boundaries are not mental construct. They are innate, and are actually felt as an urge within the body that let's us know whether or not we feel comfortable in a particular situation. For most of us, stretching beyond our "comfort zone" is a requirement.

Soul
Such dilemma over Z. Is this worth it? What happen if I just drop him. Why am I holding on? My issue is control. I want to direct where we r going. Perhaps I did jump a gun when he came back. But it is not new, I have been saying it before.

Father, what is the route am I to take? Just drop him. That was what I decided when I was in ashram. I didn't expect him to come back.

Cosmic love
Our attempt to coerce others into being what we want them to be actually defeats the very intimacy and Love we most want to experience.

To try to change another person something he isn't is a waste of time and energy and in the process the other person ends up feeling invalidated. Nobody wins.
If someone does not appeal to ur personal taste, it does not mean that they need to change. Rather, it is an indicator that they are not the right person for u to be deeply involved at that point of time.

There are different styles we use in our attempts to manipulate others into changing. By seeing these patterns, it is hoped that some of the unconscious tactics in ur psyche that are undermining u, will relax, so u can more easily allow others to be themselves. This leaves u free to be urself and to love and appreciate the differences of those around u.

And if we pass through each incident that life brings our way by consciously learning the lessons we need to learn and move on to new experiences - our world expands.

Soul
He has told me continuously that we r on non-committed rship. It was I who wanted it from day one. I still wanted it. We have never agree on it. He be 'angry' as he said he kept his end, whereas I didn't. He keep on telling me that I am not his Top 5 and here he is my Top 1. Father, my perseverance keeps us going this far, despite all my fears.
Suddenly an Ah Ha moment; DROP IT.
Father, I suddenly msg him; Are u resigning from us again? I wanted to delete it but accidentally send it. Anyway, that's done.
My limit is up. I deserve an interactive rship. No guessing and waiting games.

Cosmic love
In any rship, both people's readiness and level of commitment to success has a lot to do with the outcome. If a person is ready to commit to making the rship work, and is willing to give the time and energy that can make it successful, many things that might ordinarily be difficulties can be dealt with and overcome in harmonious way.
No rship is "insuccessful" when viewed from the perspective of personal growth.

The values and spiritual maturity of two individuals must be naturally compatible in order for truly deep bonding to occur. Sometimes experiencing heartbreak leads to deep introspection, seeking counseling or finding spiritual path - any of which can bring us far greater success in our next rship.
The people we attract to our lives often hold the key to the next step we need in order to complete our own readiness to have a successful rship.

Soul
Yea, commitment and readiness, both of which I have but not Z.
Suddenly I stopped reading. It is enough. Just let go. My limit is up.