Ace of Spades in Venus - unveil the truth behind my issues in romantic relationships

Sept 18 aft

Just did the Story on Difficulty in leaving a bad relationship.
There is no more sadness. Just acceptance. Finally its over.

Finally unveiled the Truth behind my lifetime challenges in relationship.
I was blinded by my belief resulted in flawed perception in relationship. I was an ass in romantic relationship.

Father, all these brought about with the fall of parameters in food. Once I can see food clearly and lowered its high parameter, I was able to see my personal relationships with friends were not satisfying especially with those dominant cases.
The old me would have gone back to S as I pity her...now the new me was not bothered and actually glad that we have no contact for one month.
The same goes for the dominant L and persistent H, both of them I can now opt not to respond. Since they cannot have establish mutually satisfying relationship; why put myself into it.

I now know I have great offerings and hence need to discriminate on friends who comes into my space. Especially more for romantic partner since I got nil parameter.

Father, I used to think You punished me by sending me such bad partners. I used to think this is my bad karma. Alas, it is just me, I am responsible for creating bad relationship.
I didn't do the right thing like I did for my professional relationship.

Since late March this year, when I started to do right thing with relationship on food, my body is giving me good feedback. Mutually satisfying relationship.
For personal relationship, it started about three month ago that I start to draw parameters on those controllers. So, it is much better now.
I have overcomes my fear to express my needs. I now realised that once I expressed my needs, their response will determine my next action. Main thing is for me to have win win relationship with all aspect of my life.

So, next is romantic relationship. At least I got the right perception and with it I can now see Z as an asshole and I was an ass for holding on for so long. Holding on even the relationship was long gone.
Glad that he and wife came back into my life...and I managed to unveil the secrets behind my karma in bad relationship.
Father, now I can truly see that I am saved. You saved me from a bad relationship.
Now I can see that I won by losing him.

Venus in 52 days (24 Aug to 15 Oct)
Ruling card
Eight of Clubs (focus of the mind and plans bring more success and accomplishment)
The power of the mind can bring money and success during the Venus period especially with respect to women. It can mean a development of psychic powers or the feminine side.
A powerful stabilising influence that will provide very good results.

Soul
Glad that I persevere and their presence truly helps me to go inward.

Destiny Card
Ace of Spades (secret, the desire for work, transformation of the lifestyle, symbol for esoteric knowledge and mystical wisdom)
The Ace of Spades means a SECRET of some kind. This card was the emblem for many of the secret societies of old, being the 'key to the mysteries'. As such, it represents the 'truth that lies behind the veil of illusion'. So, it has often been the symbol for the study and pursuit of esoteric knowledge and mystical wisdoms.
 The Ace of Spades is also one of the traditional cards for death, change and transformation related to your love life. With this mystical card in your spread, it is certain that you will go through some sort of death and rebirth, or at the least, some important and powerful changes.


Soul
The 52 days cards truly nail it on the cross. I can finally see the truth that lies behind the veil of illusion.Now that I see him as an asshole and myself as an ass..whats there to hold on...nothing left.

Just saw my this year life spread and note that Two of Diamonds in my Displacement. No wonder...so difficult to let go of the bad relationship. Well, now more.

As G said, my journey with Z is done. Amen