Nine of Hearts

Sept 27

Had medicine after 10.30 pm and slept around midnight. I knew I won't have enough sleep if I get up for practices. So didn't bother. True enough I woke up with a smile at around 6 am. Doze back and wake up at 6.50 am upon alarm.
Still bit groggy, guess effects from medicine.
I always better after my practices.

Just now P was acting controller again with harsh tone. This time, I just assert myself. I no longer take it personally. An hour late, she reverted as she must have realised her tone was harsh earlier

Just got a call from another state, isha core member, she too was demotivated. She said she wanted to cry already as teacher gave her so much pressure. I told her just ignored it..
I told her that teacher is just like my ex-boss. She thinks that people like challenges and will grow from it. I told her that my ex-boss like to throw 'spanner' to me when I m riding a bike. I told her cheer up.
She just messaged saying she now feels motivated after my chat.
She said she was also sad at the way teacher responded to my email earlier.

mmm, today Nine of Hearts.

1) After my cries...feel let go of past. Eyes was bit swollen today. Coincidentally received whatsapp whatsapp message that Z gave to all. As of today, I no longer take it up.

2) comforting people.

The Nine of Hearts
The Nine of Hearts can be a card of emotional disappointment and personal losses on the affectional level. However, this is the card of completions in love and of 'Universal Love'. Yes, the Nine of Hearts can signal the ending of one or more key relationships. If so, it is most likely that these relationships are no longer doing you any good. It is time for them to end, whether or not you realize this at the time they happen.

However, the Nine of Hearts can also represent our helping others by counseling them or in some way sharing our love and compassion with them. It means a giving of love in a more or less selfless manner.

Oh yea, S called me; as if nothing happens previously. For me, just stay focused. Set parameters

This week Resolution card come fruitful. Encounters with 2 Parental/Controller mode in my life. They no longer holds me

First meditate, be blissful, then much love will happen of its own accord. Then being with others is beautiful and being alone is also beautiful. Then it is simple, too. You don't depend on others and you don't make others dependent on you. Then it is always a friendship, a friendliness. It never becomes a relationship, it is always a relatedness