If the desired outcome cannot be visualised, most likely it cannot happen to what we desired

Sept 20
Woke up with this tot:
Why I still give when Z asked me not to? I m such an ass in the relationship with Z. I knew it was a risk giving but still I proceed. Of course, at time fear sets in and I explode by running.

Soul
U have to give. The only way out is in.
Don't just blame yourself. He truly didnt ends it well. He was an asshole ending.
And if he is not an asshole in ending; u won't get this karmic breakthrough.

Body feels well. Green phelgm has reduced but coughing increased. Perhaps this are tail ends.
Asanas were ok. Able to touch forehead to knees for the three cycle. Snail also improved. Breathing was not good cos coughing loads. Shakti also break up by coughing. But I did my best. Shambavi was good. Love the preparatory steps. Ending was good. Just sat there in contented silence.
There were some tots of past. This time I would just counter that I was an ass.

As I was driving, feels sad that I was an ass. Perhaps the past coming to my life serves as a reminder that I can be an ass in romantic relationship. Big price to pay but my issues may be deep and hence need reinforcement. Just remember Father gives me everything that I need; not what I may want.

Now in the restaurant; just realised that everyone sets high parameters on food cos that's the easiest one to win. Food won't say no. The only thing is the quality of food dictated by money. For myself; quality and money spend on food increased in tandem with my increased income.

From Facebook
Imagine If unwelcome visit by pains of the past were really an invitation to honour, pardon and sets them free.

Soul
Like that.

The Twelfth Insight
When facing a decision whether to go somewhere or not, we can just imagine ourselves already traveling to the place and arriving there. The point is to see how easily the journey can be visualised. If u can see urself going there easily, then that's means its a good idea. If the desired images are difficult to see, or fail to appear altogether, we should take precautionary steps.
We could use this method to tune in to many different life situations.

Soul
I was unable to see images of me being happily married. Cant really see how Z can overcome his need for children. I don't even want to do Kapalvriksha as I can't visualise the images.
So it was right that it could not happen. And I tot I was destined to be without partner. luckily i had auto control mode so things never go too disastrous.
But since I found out that it was me not setting parameter that attract bad relationship.  I felt hopeful.
There is hope for me. Father; finally I m beginning to have faith. You have brought me this far and u will bring me further.
Instead of asking why relationship doesn't happen. I know now that u r trying to prevent bad ones from happening.

Twelfth Insight
 When we see the right course of action, there is a corresponding elevation of energy or an "urging" feeling, as though one is "inspired" to take the action.

Soul
Beginning to understand this.

The Twelfth Insight
Judaism
Obeying God

Christian
Doing God's Will

Zen
Flow in harmony with the Divine.

Islam
Surrendering to the God. It is the foundation of Islam. The ego must be put in its proper place by the daily seeking of guidance in prayer, many times daily, so that we act in spirit!