Cosmic Love for North node in Taurus

Sept 19 eve
Mmm, suddenly tot teacher is also another controller. She also forced M into extreme. And she also for forced me into extreme over simple mail. I used to be dumbfounded by her judgement. But now I know...its the same like S too.

Just did evening Shoonya and Samyama. Shoonya not great cos coughing too much. Surprisingly it was nice Samyama. I tot it was a short one but I sat for half an hour too. Towards the end, cheer bubble through and I laughed contently.
A tot came to me; my romantic love is no longer a hope for miracle. It can truly happen. The jinx is finally undone.

Will stop Nanak for awhile and read Cosmic Love with new eyes.

Cosmic Love by Jan Spiller
By consistently choosing the highest path of true authenticity over a desired outcome in the relationship, we can actively cooperate with the process of becoming more whole and genuine and earn the right to experience greater exchanges of Love to satisfy and heal us.

The people we attract into our lives often hold the key to the next step we need to take in order to complete our own readiness to have successful relationship.

Soul
True. The parental modes personal relationships have helped me to see through that people who shout loudest ain't gospel truth. I learned to ignore their attack and focus on my path.

Z was the karmic one who finally led me to see how my need to have a partner led me to have no parameter on selection of partner. And it is also this awareness that led to dissolve my past belief that I need a miracle to have a successful relationship.
Well, no more. I know I don't need miracle cos I can now take responsibility to make it happen. Just like I attracted and maintain good food and good working relationships; the same can now happen in personal and romantic relationships.

Cosmic Love
The values and spiritual maturity of two individuals must be naturally compatible in order for truly deep bonding to occur.

Soul
Yes; especially now I know that I want total commitment with my partner and my spiritual path.

Karma mate
These relationships when handled correctly can yield a clarity and fearlessness that empowers us to rise beyond our greatest vision for ourselves

Soul
I tot Z and I were soul mate. But then I don't have his time of birth so natal chart may not be accurate.

Cosmic Love
Since we can only experience a certain number of deeply personal relationships in any one lifetime, its important to be  selective about those we relate on an essential level.

Soul
Yes, need to set parameters for romantic relationships.


Cosmic Love
North node in Taurus
They denies their needs in the moment and then demands that they be met in a specific way later on. And then, whether their partner later meet their needs or not, they cannot experience true intimacy because the natural reciprocal process that can be created when needs are expressed As They Arise has been circumvented.

For most people, stretching beyond their comfort zone is a requirement for personal and spiritual growth. But for Taurus NN people, this process is reversed. They tend to feel safer when they discount their own comfort and ignore their boundaries. It may even feel very frightening for them to remain aware of their comfort zone and stay within it, but it is through that process that growth can occur.
And in this lifetime, it is an absolute necessity if their relationship to succeed.

Soul
When I read this previously I sort of ignored it. Now that I can see that its my Zero parameters that causes me to have bad partners; I will abide.

Cosmic Love for North node in Taurus
In this incarnation, there is no rush, they have plenty of time - and if they stay within the parameters of where they feel good about themselves, they will know they are on track.

Soul
Exactly. Parameters.

Cosmic Love for North node in Taurus
They have lost touch with their own sense of self worth and the inner voices that tells them what is truly worthwhile. Until this pattern is resolved, it emerges again in this incarnation as a block to creating happy relationships.


Soul
Yes, parameters again.

Cosmic Love for North node in Taurus
This block intimacy because underneath the native knows they are disrespecting themselves by giving themselves so much to their partner - and they are - when they don't also reveal their own needs.

Soul
Yes, I was an ass.

Cosmic Love for North node in Taurus
They just assume that their choice is to partner with someone and be responsible for their needs, or to not have a partner. So rather than following their own natural attraction and finding what they need for personal fulfilment, they usually choose a partner whom they think they can fulfill without expanding too much energy.

Soul
True. The karmic wheel is broken.

Cosmic Love for North node in Taurus
No one asked the native to give so excessively and they never make it clear to their partner what they want in return. So, again, its the "hidden price tag" and when the other person doesn't "pay up", the native shut down.

Soul
Z always asked me not to give. But I continue to give, pretending to myself that  I don't want anything. Anyway, in this case, its a wrong partner. He kept to his original intention that I m just a fling, albeit long term.
So, will not judge myself.

Cosmic Love for North node in Taurus
For their relationship to be successful, NN are learning to take responsibility for strengthening their sense of self and reconnecting with their own personal values. They can accomplish this by focusing on the people and activities that bring them inner feeling of satisfaction. They must make sure they set aside enough time to pursue reestablishing their sense of self worth.

Soul
Amen. With my 3 days week I m on the right track.

Cosmic Love for North node in Taurus
In past lives, NN were accustomed to having a Soul Mate, so now whenever they bond with someone - a lover, spouse, child or business partner - they give 100%.

Soul
Part of me knew that. That's why I don't want to have children. As for partner, I hope to have someone's that gives me less responsibility (not needy) or someone that can give me (stronger). Alas I now strive for mutual giving.

Cosmic Love for North node in Taurus
When they consciously constructing healthy boundaries - by setting time aside for themselves, letting others know as their needs arise and building reciprocity in their relationship - they naturally cease to create money crises.

Soul
I m quite good with money, thanks to Moon in Taurus and Solar in Taurus. But creating healthy boundaries; ie parameters is important.