Happy that I can now cry freely

Sept 26 eve 1
Got this in FB.
Socrates
The secret of change is to focus all ur energy not in fighting the old but on building  the new.

Soul
Amen.

Just finished watching drama show on television. The heroin also cried before finally releasing her past. 
A coincidence. Firstly I fall sick probably due to too much unshed tears for past 2 months. Then menses came after 2 months and today I cry after 2 months. I love that I can cry unbashedly without auto stopping. I love that I can now cry freely. Amen

First step loving myself, allowing myself to be sad, to cry out of frustration. To cry non stop. To cry for the sake of tears.

Suddenly saw my today card

My Daily Card
The Six of Clubs
The Six of Clubs is THE card of intuition. Its presence in your cards can indicate a time when your intuition will be stronger than usual. It is also the card of responsibility in speech and communications and of making compromises to maintain a peaceful surrounding. When this card shows up, situations will arise that promote bringing your life into balance and stability. Whatever is out of balance will have to be adjusted so there may be karmic debts to pay.

On a more universal level, the presence of the Six of Clubs can indicate a time when we can become aware of a special purpose in our life, something to do with sharing higher knowledge with others. It has also been called the 'John the Baptist Card' and the 'Way-Shower's Card'. Thus it can be a harbinger of an important mission for you, one which will lead you to a higher purpose and lifestyle in the spiritual sense.

Soul
I feel this card a settlement of values.
I do value my tears. My tears are not something to be ashamed of. It is ok to cry even if I m strong. It is ok to unbashedly.

Father, thank You.
Now perhaps I understand this week card.
1. Issue
Schizophrenia
U cannot utter a simple 'yes' with totality. In this way happiness is not possible; unhappiness is a natural consequence of a split personality.

Soul
Yes, saying yes to letting go of past but still lingers on now and then.

2. Internal influence
Morality.
Unless awareness arises in u, all ur morality is bogus. But once ur morAlity has come out of awareness, not out of certain discipline, then u will respond in every situation out of ur awareness.
The Queen of Clouds lurks in the mind of all of us who have been brought up with rigid ideas of good and bad, acceptable and unacceptable, moral and immoral. These judgement of the mind is just our conditioning. Only when we break through the cage of our conditioning and reach the truth of our own hearts can we begin to see life as it is.

Soul
I interpret this as me able to cry freely and unbashedly. Me able to connect to my heart and just feel whatever inside without judgment.
Me now thinking crying is ok. Crying won't kill me. In fact I feel much better after crying.