Finally realise I wrongly place my lovability on the wrong partners

Sept 21

Woke up and wonder about Z whether Z was a true player.  Then I confirmed it. He just a long time player, nevertheless a true player. Only a player can do immediate replacement. Only a player can say u can fool around but don't let it affect ur family status. Only a player can say u can go for a relationship, enjoy yourself but don't bring him or her home to family, keep it separate.

Did my practices. Surya kriya was lovely. Foot alignment getting better. Breathing was nice. Shakti was good. Shambavi good too. Some tots and just a little tots of past that just float by; it can no longer hold.

One tot stick. I m truly lovable but the partners I had attracted can't or won't appreciate my lovability. So, not my issue. Its their issue. A tot came on his 42 to 48 on Eight of Hearts long range. It doesn't mean all rosy; he is just looking and that's his dream. Just like my age 42 to 48 is Queen of Spades - searching for self mastery.

My issue was no parameter led to bad partner. Partner that won't or can't appreciate me. So the outcome would definitely be bad. The karmic life challenge is dissolved.

I did the wrong thing and it stopped with Z. 

Finally, its not that he is insensitive or think I m great or he is not; he just put me to be a player like him. That's why he can end the way he did and do immediate replacement.