When I lost my attachment to food...my high definition eyes sight for nature becomes consistent

Sept 25 eve

Did Shoonya at 4 pm, went in deep. Did Shoonya again at 7 pm, not as deep but nice. Towards the end I find it difficult to open my eyes. Continue with Samyama, nice. Unexpectedly sitting in Arda Sidhharna posture. These days sitting for Samyama seems longer than I feel. I tot I sat 15 minutes but actually is 25 minutes. A far cries from the early years when I tend to doze off within minutes.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
One of the doors is towards nature - downwards - and one is towards godliness - upwards. When our mind is filled with sexual desire we are closest to body. And when we are closest to body, then the door opens through which we enter into the world of other bodies. When we are disinterested and far away from the body, then the door that open through which we enter the world of souls. Both of these doors are there in the body.

Soul
Before Z, I didn't know that sex with the right partner is important to me. So, I tot my route was the soul. Now I know can be both but soul still the priority to me.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
When a person drops attachment to his body, then the luminously that comes to his eyes for the first time is that of his own flame, his own soul.

Soul
When I read this, I tot of my attachment to food. My greatest challenge in Isha was food. I was a gourmet eater and I totally disliked Indian food. When I went to Ashram for BSP, I couldn't eat the food and so ate loads of banana. I was known as the banana gal.
I only ate at the restaurant and never at Biksha Hall. It took me three years and 6 visits before I ate voluntarily in Biksha hall.
I cried in Samyama when I was forced to eat kanji.
Since most of Isha are Indians, I had to eat Indian food most of the time. I ate a little out of courtesy.
My greatest fear after BSP was becoming a vegetarian. In fact knowing Sadhguru's power over me I avoided him most in case I was converted.
After four and half year, I turned into eating seafood only. It happens overnight. There were no dilemma, to my amazement and also to others. Everyone knew my karma on food.
Slowly as my attachment to food reduce, my eyesight and connection to nature becomes more consistent.