Osh - Zorba (love) and Buddha (awareness)

Sept 6 eve 1

Osho
I want u to grow in ur love and in ur awareness together - to be Zorba and to be a Buddha, together. Zorba is love; Buddha is awareness
It is easier to grow one, but it is far more juicier to grow both together. And if both together can be grown, then the master will not be the last barrier, because u are one with the master. On the path of awareness, the master is a barrier. On the path of love, no barrier.

But people on the path of love have not reached to the ultimate peaks of consciousness. They have enjoyed existence tremendously, but they have not become like Everest, pillars of awareness. Love makes them drunk, less aware.

And people who have followed awareness have become desert-like, dry. Nothing grows, not even grass. There is no oasis on their path, only the desert, which goes on becoming drier and drier; but they have reached to the highest peak of awareness.

The effort to create synthesis between love and awareness is my contribution to the world, because I would like u to be aware like Buddha, but not so dry.

Soul
Then I m definitely in the path of love. I m normally drunk in meditation. When I am into meditation zone, I  will go on crying, laughing, singing and dancing.
Only recently Stillness sets in. Now learning to use Samyama in real time. Thanks to the incoming past, I know I need to go into awareness mode.
When I m in meditation, past can't touch me. But I cannot be 'drunk' on the outside world.

A tot came, on the outer world I places too much self control. So in the inner world I let go of control. Now that I finally release portion of outer world control, I need not be totally drunk in practices. I can afford to bring in awareness now.

Alas I understand my path, I am doing both. I want both. Thanks to Osho and Sadhguru I can have both. Sadhguru also offers it but unfortunately  his disciples are into awareness mode.

Osho - razor edge
To manage both together is a little difficult but it is worth it.
Love and awareness together means you don't have to renounce life.
Love prevents u from renouncing life and awareness helps u to be in the world and yet not be of the world.

Soul
I want both