Queen of Spades - finally materialising

Sept 25

Woke up middle of night with cough. Had some hot water and slept back. Feels good that I can sleep on. I told my body that I am going to recover.
Woke up at 7.20 am upon alarm. Menses came; so things are flowing.
Surya kriya is lovely. Foot alignment in place. Still not able to put two feet on ground for mountain.
Shakti was fine cos not able to do full Kapala due to menses. Shambavi was good. Lovely Suka kriya. Towards the end I feel I was flying like a bird. I was singing and dancing.

During Surya kriya, I was able to focus so awareness is on. Shakti average. Lost bit during Shambavi on the past. Yes, need to be diligent event if the tots are nice cos they too are not real. Losing awareness over illusion is not smart. Guess on Surya kriya, I know full attention is required cos otherwise be out of alignment. For Shambavi, focus not required. But perhaps that its. It's when we don't require focus that we need to be more alert otherwise we lose awareness very easily. Just like easy to lose in nice pleasurable tots.

Today
Ten of Spades in Mars.

Father, been having power cards of Tens and Eight recently.

Was checking my Blog and noted someone reading Age 42 to 48 Destiny spread written back in Oct 2012.

Long range
Queen of Spades (Self-Mastery)
Queens have their greatest power in the feminine, receptive mode. To truly receive, we must attain that state of mind in which we allow everything to come to us without hesitation. It usually require some inner exploration to achieve this state, and this is something that most of us never do, because it is not taught as part of our culture.
It is the spiritual aspirant who learns to master themselves instead of trying to change external circumstances. And it is those aspirants who experience the real power of the feminine sides of their being, which the Queen of Spades represents.

The Queen of Spades is the second most powerful card in this deck. This is a period when u can accomplish ur dream, but not by the usual approach. This period, all success comes from within u by mastering the causes of all ur exterior events by mastery of urself. By seeing that nothing happens in ur life without ur permission, u reclaim the power to create the world u desire without trying to change others. This could indeed be a period of mastery and accomplishment for u. Recognise the power that u have now and apply it wherever u desire. Look within for ur answers and let that inner knowing help u in all ur external endeavours.

Keywords;
A period of hard work and spiritual 'self mastery'. I master myself and therefore, I master my entire life.

Soul
Very true. Thanks to challenges in facing Z.
Keyword - Nothing happens in my life without my permission.
I was the cause of my Seven of Heart.
I can then undo it.