Trusting the Universe - everything is in order for my recovery

Sept8 eve
Father, thank You. You are truly great. U arranged everything in order, every step of the way. The Ace of Diamonds life spread on Nine of Hearts in Saturn and Seven of Clubs in Uranus ease the way for me.

Saw them both together and I was even able to congratulate them on their marriage. When I first saw them, there were no sadness as my energy was high. Later towards the end when energy subsides, sadness come.
I already feel sad. But I told myself I still got a choice. Eight months have passed and I no longer want to feel beholden to past memories.

Then I recalled my this week Internal Influence's Healing card - about accepting all insults. If u r in the heads, u will feel pain. Take urself out of the head, move as a total being. U won't feel hurt.

I tot that's really true. When I looked at them without thinking, there were no hurts. Its only when I think and ponder and extrapolate that I start to have negative tots of them out to attack me that I become sad.
So I focus on my breathe and slowly the sadness subsides. Negative tots also stops extrapolating.
Reach home and now checked out my Osho card.

Healing
With the ego, ur whole being is a wound. And u carry it around. Nobody is interested to hurt u, nobody positively waiting to hurt u; everybody is engaged in safeguarding his own wound.
U cannot touch a man of Tao. Why? Because there is no one to be touched.  There is no wound. He is healthy, healed, whole.
Be aware of ur wound. Don't help it to grow, let it be healed; and it will be healed only when u move to the roots.
The less the heads, the more the wound heals; with no head there is no wound. Live a headless life. Move as a total being, just accept things.

Soul
Exactly. Me thinking of negative tots only hurts me; not them. And besides I truly want to move on. Eight months is a long time and I no longer wants to stay there. I know and understand the break up. Acceptance may take awhile but I don't want to prolong it.

Today I asked for the following
1. Being forever joyful
2. Being with my loving spiritual partner in Isha
3. Being a famous author with many visitors on my website.

So, no more. Just go with the flow. Looks like I will meet them again soon. Second time should be better. I survived the first round.

Father, looks like there be more to come. Never mind. I m all grown up. Listening to Sadhguru's darshan only serves to remind me that the completion was just a tool for me.