Looking at my belief that i need a partner to feel complete

Sept 12 aft 2

Father, a great surprise. The other state Sathsang guide back me up and said that teacher was mistaken. He also said that we cannot force people to attend programs, eventhough they may have said they were interested.
Father, thank you for this.
This gives me a sign that my Saturn in Nine of Hearts is truly ending. I used to have issue with the other guide, he is a Nine of Hearts. Then I begin to distance myself and not to take his comments personally. Alas, he finally came thru. I am so glad that he came thru today, especially when I needed some positive tots.

Father, thank you for sending this message to me. Appreciate it.

Now doing abridged book for Osho - Nanak read back in 2010 and saw this.

Firstly Osho card says that if I finally clean and clear, I will know Existence cares for me and then I can live without the need for control.  INTP says that my growth path is to stay in uncomfortable position, not to be in control. INTP also mention abt the need to expand and share my world. To include instead of exclude the world. And here Osho - Nanak talks about self contentment and compassions for others.









Soul
Well, I must be clean and clear cos I know Existence cares for me.
I am still not so clear why the Past is back into my Life but there must be a reason.  
 Exactly the message I need now.
I recalled Natal chart says that my growth will be tied to the relationship I have.
Just remember I am blessed with Having..to give.
And this time with me knowing Responsibility is not suffering. I can see this positively.
Amen

Soul
Wrote this in Aug 22 2010;
New Earth. Just read a caption relating to my Dream of Self-Mastery
Mastery of life is not a question of control, but finding a balance between human (role u play) and Being.
Give up defining yourself - to yourself or to others. You won't die. You will come to life.
In form, you are and will always be inferior to some, superior to others. In essence, you are neither inferior nor superior to anyone.

Soul
Yea, if I continue to believe I needed a partner to feel complete; which is similar to Z's belief that he needs children to feel complete. Firstly, I would be resentful of him showing off his wife as I feel he is more superior than me.
Secondly, I cannot judged him cos I too behave like him.
Father, I truly need to change my belief. Please help me.
This is the most crucial belief that I need to change in my life.
The only karma I have is romantic relationship which arise from my belief that I need a partner to feel complete.
Once I removed that belief, karma will be dissolved and I am detached from romantic relationship. It no longer then validates me, no longer have emotional connection to me; ie no more triggering the old wound.

Yea, he is back for me to work on this.
Natal chart said that my growth is from relationship that I have.
Just a week ago I tot I have dissolved my Seven of Hearts and there is no one that can disturb me. I wonder whats my next phase of growth will comes from. And here it shows up in a way that is truly unexpected; my Past back in the present.

Ruling card
Eight of Clubs (focus of the mind and plans bring more success and accomplishment)
The power of the mind can bring money and success during the Venus period especially with respect to women. It can mean a development of psychic powers or the feminine side.
A powerful stabilising influence that will provide very good results.

Soul
This is my 52 days; three weeks has past and I achieve loads; will take the other 4 weeks to focus on this.
Let me take the blessing of this card.