Loving experience with Nature - singing in the park

Sept 15 eve
Just did my evening walk. I did it because I m feeling happy; just had loving feeling since this morning in the park.

Step into the park and start silent singing in the mind. When I walked in; I felt love flowing into me and I start to feel overwhelm and tears of gratefulness drops.

Second cycle with some singing out loud and feeling love from the trees.

Third cycle was just contented feeling of love for them. Now I m able to see their shapes. I thanked them for allowing me to see them; to feel them.

Through out second and three cycle; there were a few love couples. I just see them; no feeling just glad I now have ultimate love with Nature. Today I walked slowly savouring the loving feeling.

I m no longer scared of going to Kailash. The loving existence will carry me all the way. 

A tot came to me if Universe can send me the right Osho tarot cards on weekly basis and the right books, why not I trust that Universe will send me other things or people that I need. 

Suddenly I realised the loving feeling is similar to the contentment that I experienced during my practices. I was feeling love all these while but unaware. It took the overwhelming love from Sadhguru to me and my overwhelming love for Dhynalinga leads to this recognition. Amen.

See a few more couples; there is no more envious feelings. Saw a couple with a child on tow and wife pregnant. The guy reminds me a bit of Z. I just looked at them imagining Z and wife with children. I felt fine. We have different path.

Also tot of the Osho rship tarot card that I draw on Thursday. It truly sums up the karmic relationship of Nine of Hearts; Seven of Spades and Seven of Clubs.

1. Me - Consciousness
He represents the consciousness that is available to all who become a master of the mind and can use it as the servant it is meant to be. When you choose this card, it means that there is a crystal clarity available right now, detached, rooted in the deep stillness that lies at the core of your being. There is no desire to understand from the perspective of the mind--the understanding you have now is existential, whole, in harmony with the pulse of life itself.

2. Him - Dream
Nobody, whether it's your current mate or some dreamed-of partner in the future, has any obligation to deliver your happiness on a platter--nor could they even if they wanted to. Real love comes not from trying to solve our neediness by depending on another, but by developing our own inner richness and maturity. Then we have so much love to give that we naturally draw lovers towards us.

3. Composite Energy - Trust
Don't waste your life for that which is going to be taken away. Trust life. If you trust, only then can you drop your knowledge, only then can you put your mind aside. And with trust, something immense opens up. Then this life is no longer ordinary life, it becomes full of God, overflowing.

4 insight - Stress.
All private goals are neurotic. The essential man comes to know, to feel, "I am not separate from the whole, and there is no need to seek and search for any destiny on my own. Things are happening, the world is moving--call it God...he is doing things. They are happening of their own accord. There is no need for me to make any struggle, any effort; there is no need for me to fight for anything. I can relax and be." The essential man is not a doer. The accidental man is a doer.
Amen.