Go with the Flow - break my auto control mode

Sept 15 eve 1

Osho - Nanak
The only remedy is to leave everything to God: his will be done. Await his pleasure. Live the way he wants u to. Be whatever he wants u to. Go wherever he takes u u. Let his command be ur one and only spiritual practice.
Brush aside all hopes and desires, fill urself with wonder and gratitude.

Soul
This is exactly my path now. My control mode is broken alas.
And in the case of karmic relationship; the message from Osho tarot relationship is the same too.
3. Composite Energy - Trust

4 insight - Stress.

And that's my Insight just now in the park. If God can brings me the right Osho cards and the right books; why can't I trust him to do the right thing for me?

Just back from coffee and desserts with family. Suddenly tot I should keep his wife's contact as the profile pix is of her and Z. This will serves a good reminder. And perhaps that's why they are back in my presence. To remind me not to stay in the present. To remind me that the separation was a blessing to me.

Osho - Nanak
In sorrow or happiness let one tune plays incessantly within u. "I am happy the way u keep me. Ur command is my life".

Worry arises because u r trying to impose ur will on Existence. Things should not have happened as they have happened, and things should not be happening as they are happening: this is ur anxiety, and then u suffer because of it.

As soon as the thought, "Leave all unto him" is nourished deeply within u, all that happens at his command, an intense peace, a gentle shower inside washes away all tension, all anxiety.

Soul
So true. But I m ready now. Finally ready to release the control.

Osho - Nanak
Have u watched a hawk soaring in the sky? When it has flown to a sufficient height, it stretches its wing wide and floats in the air. When ur mind reaches that stage it in a state of surrender. U need no longer flap ur wings, u merely float, weightless in his atmosphere. 
For all weight is caused by conflict; it is born through resistance. The more u fight, the lower u fall. The more u abandon the fight, the higher u soar.

Soul
Recently my meditation I have experienced feeling of flying. Suddenly my arms would stretch out and swing to get me high. Then it stays there and floats. And I sang; "Take me higher and higher".
Not sure where the song comes from but just now I also sang this in the park.
Amen.