Ending Uranus Seven of Clubs in Ruling card

Sep 9 mor 1

Since Father thinks I m great and have loads of love to give. I must believed him. I too must think I am great.

A tot came, about 13 years ago I was heartbroken over the first guy I loved. He was sensitive and lets me down gently. We were good friends, never start a relationship and so we remain friends. Looking at it now I m glad we were not together as I would have converted to Catholics. I would have missed out the journey via Isha and Osho. I couldn't have done this spiritual journey if I wasn't alone.

And the same with the latest ex relationship. Looking at him and wife; I knew we too not meant to be. The past 8 months without him has deepen my spiritual growth. And now I got to face future with him in the background. But there must also be a reason for this. For me to practice Samyama, to reaffirm my path for existential.

So not sure where I m going. But I am not trusting the Universe and I know for sure it is further spiritual growth. This morning affirms dissolving Seven of Clubs and I m now determined not to let t Seven of Heart be opened. I closed it forever.

Father, just read my Osho tarot card for this week.
I got the following Issue card - Sharing.
Sharing
     The Queen of Fire is so rich, so much a queen, that she can afford to give. It doesn't even occur to her to take inventories or to put something aside for later. She dispenses her treasures without limits, welcoming all and sundry to partake of the abundance, fertility and light that surrounds her. 

When you draw this card, it suggests that you too are in a situation where you have an opportunity to share your love, your joy and your laughter. And in sharing, you find that you feel even more full. 




Soul
Father, thank you for such immediate answers. The cards are getting really intuitive. The Universe is answering my calls immediately

As I was reading the Osho tarot cards for the week, a tot occurred to me. My lifetime challenges is Seven of Heart. I was always thinking I m unlovable and hence afraid to seek love. When I finally open I to seek, I failed. At first it reinforces the belief of being unloved.
Then now that I love myself.
I wonder perhaps instead of my misguided interpretation that I m unlovable and people don't take care of me, people careless with my feelings causing me hurt and betrayal.
Perhaps, I always find myself in position to give because I already have love within.
Perhaps and its a big perhaps I m truly capable of living the unconditional love of Seven of Hearts.
All my trials and tribulations are due to misguided interpretation causing negative beliefs and bad outcome.
And I m here to go through it, suffer out of ignorance,  face it out of courage and then finally found out that it is actually reverse.
Perhaps the big truth is I m truly lovable with big love to give and can give unconditionally.
The old me can't and doesn't want to see this cos it view being the Giver of Love is big responsibility and it is suffering. And God didnt love me, didnt take care of me.
Again, a misguided view.

But the new me already know to be the Giver means I already Have and got much to give.
Father, this is a very big Perhaps. But I think something here. I no longer wants to suffer out of misguided belief creating outcome that makes me unhappy.

I think I m finally breaking out.
Just like the old me who tot I couldn't swim breaststroke, won't like it even if I can is actually wrong belief. On the contrary I love swimming breaststroke. Once I got into it, I enjoy it even more than freestyle.
And I tot I would die without meat. Actually my body prefers no meat. Its frame has went down considerably just by change of diet. Everything I believed is actually not true.

I m ready to tear down my misguided belief on Seven of Hearts.

Father, guide me. Amen. At the very least Seven of Clubs is dissolved. I want new beliefs.

Today card
Ace of Clubs
Means a strong desire for knowledge of some kind or the birth of a new idea or just embarking on a new way of thinking and communicating with others.
Good time to start something new.

Soul
Mmm. Looks like I m on the right track.

And this week Resolution card on Aloneness could be the answer too. Be the light unto myself.
That's exactly what I just thought about. Amen.