Osho - spirituality is the experiencer

Sept 23 aft
Father, just received a reply from a client. I m surprised that he found the mail impolite. I sympathise with what the team has to go through.
Anyway will only reply tomorrow.
I can also see the client has loads of fears as simple mail can made him feel defensive.

Osho Adhyatma Upanishad
The longing for worldly things arises due to their distance and due to their challenge and calling. The longing for God arises from the failure of worldly things.

Eyes are also a kind of spectacles. The colour of the spectacles gets projected on to the objects seen. All ur senses are projecting. U r creating a world all around u - a beauty, a fragrance, of this, of that.
This world is not as u see it. It is dependent on u. If u change, the world also changed.

Projections are illusions. When u have no emotions or desires to project, then seeing happens. Deception happens because of the thirst.

We see everything but we are not able to see ourselves. And we will never able to do so. Whatsoever u see, know well that it is not u. Whatever u are able to see is not u. Whatsoever has been experienced, u r not that. U r that which experiences.

So whatsoever ur experience, u r beyond it. Therefore spirituality is not an experience. Everything in the world is an experience but no spirituality.

Spirituality is reaching towards that which experiences all, but which it itself never becomes an experience. It always the experiencer, the witness, the seer.
The search for this witness is spirituality.

Soul
Wow. Something here. But I m at that level yet.
On the witness - Samyama is the key.

Today me not at top form with the medication. Of late after the past is over. I find my awareness not as strong. Last time I guard to disallow tots of past to come in. Now I don't stand guard, the clouds of tots are building. And at times I just hooked myself unnecessarily.

I want to go to the next stage. To be able to be on full awareness even if the cloud of tots are not hurting.
Just know the clouds of work came and I got bit affected. An hour later I clear my mind and drafted a good mail.

Father, I managed to overcome the past. I want to be able to overcome the mundane too.
Guide me further.