God gives everything but we can only received when we are ready or we stop resisting

Sept 16
Woke up before alarm. I m not feeling well cos sore throat. Body feel tired. Slept till alarm at 7.20 am cos today is holiday.
Wanted to do a quick one cos want to go see doctor.
Did one cycle of Surya kriya followed by breathing. Shakti was great. Now enjoying my Shakti.  Shambavi good too. Love the preparatory steps. Cat stretch is now effortless. Realised that Suka kriya is much better now.
There were little tots of past; but I find I can ignore them if I want to. Amen.

My card today
Three of Diamonds
Undecided values card
Indecision or worry about some financial matter. Need to find creative outlet for its energies. The key is to find ways to express ourselves when this card shows up.
Often variety can be a blessing allowing us to explore other areas. Usually, however, lack of focus brings lack of achievement or lack of details in one project or the other. Knowing this may help u to avoid wasting this invaluable creative force.

That's also my first karma card in Destiny which truly similar to what Natal chart - north node in Taurus says.

A tot came; looks like the Past is here to stay. They will be my barometer of awareness. To see them with awareness so that there is no emotional connection. Father, U truly think I m great. 

Now updating abridged book of Osho - Nanak. This phrase caught me cos it reminds my of BSP experience
Osho - Nanak
When u meet the flower - when their fragrances and ur very existence are intermingled - u r lost in each other, u r one. Oh, the bliss. This is the moment when ur being and that of the flowers dance together, sway in the breeze. Such bliss and joy!

Soul
Unbelievable, my first experience of another dimension. I was dancing with a tiny flower. Not sure whether I grew small or it grew big. I just remembered we are both same size and we dance together.

Osho Nanak
Even God cannot give u what u r not ready to take. If u r ready for suffering, u get suffering; if u r ready for happiness, u get happiness - u get only that for which u r prepared.
 And u receive it only through his grace, whereas u attain through ur own effort.
His Grace is forever showering on all but u r filled only when u r ready and eager to be filled.

Soul
So true.
It took me 4 years to receive Sadhguru and 4.5 years to receive Dhynalinga.
4.5 years to dissolve my karma on food.
5 years to dissolve my karma on personal relationship.
I am truly ready with new script, setting healthy parameters on all relationships to create mutually satisfying relationships.