Ending of Saturn Seven of Clubs in Destiny

Sept 9
Slept around 12.30 am. Surprisingly I went to bed with singing in my mind. Woke up before alarm but laze bit. Then got up from bed at 5.22 am upon alarm. Finished my practices at 7.21 am.

These tots comes to me when I woke up:
Go with the flow
I must be truly someone great for me to face the past in the present
Change of plan.
May not be me - could be for him too

Father, then I realised alas all the auto positive tots come; no more automatic negative ones; no more automatic hurting tots.


Did one cycle of Surya kriya. It was lovely with bliss body. Did a short nice breathing. Shakti was great. All good from beginning to end. Suka kriya was lovely. Shakti was great. Last breathing also fine. Start Shambavi with singing in my mind. Preparatory steps was lovely. Suka kriya now with difference. Somehow I stay still and my hand is closed to my chest. Despite my slight elbow pain, the hand just sits there. Aum chanting with shaking head. Towards the end after a long bhanda lock, my head was turned back and exchange of breathe happens. Then later Stillness sets in.
There were little tots of past. And I noticed stiffness on my hand indicating me not flowing. I will flow. Since I can let go of food, what else I can't let go.

Father, thank You for everything. I must be truly great if you think that I can be in such situation of being in the past and yet to be present.
No more feeling that the challenge u gave me is suffering. Now I know U think I can give because I have.
Since U think I m great, I too must believe I m great too.
Samyama is truly needed.

Just did my opening with the past while staying present. Amen.
The key is to be healed; without wound. I must remember that I m healing my Seven of Hearts and Seven of Spades/Jack of Diamonds is just the tools. They don't deserve my giving based on my head, on psychological mode. But I give cos I m healed. My dream is to be in existential mode. So I m not giving to them. I m giving to me. I no longer wants to leave any scar. And the past is with me to show that I m healed. To give me further affirmation. To let me practice Samyama in reality.

Healing
It is time when the deeply buried wounds of the past are coming to the surface, ready and available to be healed. The figure in this card is naked, vulnerable, open to the loving touch of existence. The aura around his body is full of light, and the quality of relaxation, caring and love that surrounds him is dissolving his struggle and suffering. Amen.

Soul
Yea. I m truly Going with the Flow, last week What is Needed for Resolution card.

Going with the Flow
Available to the currents of life, with never a tot of saying "I don't like that," or "I prefer to go the other way." 
Every moment in life we have a choice of whether to enter life's water and float, or to try swim upstream.
When this card appears, it is an indication that u are able to float now, trusting that life will support u in ur relaxation and take you exactly it wants u to go. Allow this feeling of trust and relaxation to grow more and more; everything is happening exactly as it should.