Monday, September 9, 2013

Uranus in Seven of Cubs with Five of Diamonds - unexpected suffering leds to liberation from deep-seated fears

Sept 7 even 3.

Uranus in Seven of Clubs.
Then u may experience the "higher mind" potential of this card, cosmic consciousness and freedom from worry and concern.

Soul
Now thinking of the major turning points after the break up since last December. Truly unexpected personal and spiritual breakthrough in the past 8 months

1. Opening my blog and website
2. Swimming in breaststroke
3. Dissolving Seven of Hearts
4. Overcoming Seven of Clubs
5. No longer slave to my mind
6. Psychological vs Existential mode
7. Sitting in arda Siddharna posture.
8. Enjoy swimming
9. Change of diet to exclude meat
10. Awareness in selection of food.

When I did Kapalvriksha three weeks ago. I asked for
1. Short term - mastery over mind
2. Mid term - my loving partner
3. Long term - success in writing.

Father, everything in place.
I finally learned that the antidote to my control is Going with the Flow.

Father, something happens to me. Today my first meal was just before 1 pm. I woke up since 7 am for my practices, went for a swim and watch bit of TV before driving for lunch. Was caught in bit of traffic jam. As I was sitting in my car at 12.30 pm suddenly realised I was not hungry at all. There is no urge.
Just two weeks ago I felt hunger when I went to my friend. p's house. By 12.30 pm I was hungry and when I eat it was quick.
Today had my lunch at 1 pm but no rush at all. 
Then after lunch we adjourned elsewhere for coffee and dessert. The orange cake and butterscotch cupcake were not great. On the level of taste I m aware but it doesn't bother me. I just eat bit and stopped. I didn't comment on it. Infact my friend V commented.

The old me would be the first to give my gourmet taste comment. Food and even dessert has really lost its emotional content to me.

Food no longer matters.
Food is no longer love to me.
Just the other day during practices; I suddenly hug myself as I was feeling overwhelming love for myself. The love comes from within.

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