I can now have success in both personal and professional relationships

Sept 13
Woke up 4.20 am on alarm.
As my left shoulder was in pain, decided to skip Surya kriya and proceed to asanas. A  bit of pain but overall ok. But couldn't touch my forehead to my knees. Surprisingly not tired and did a quick Shavasana. Breathing was lovely and I saw violet flame. I sat for a longer period since I skip the one cycle of Surya kriya. Shakti was great too with lovely Kapala Bhakti. Truly enjoying Shakti now. 

Started Shambavi with a singing. The preparatory steps was lovely. Very little tots. There were there tots of past, I look at it and said Nothing more and it evaporates as soon as it comes in.
Towards the end I was suddenly sitting in ardha Shiddharna posture. Just contented silence. I sat for a long while since I miss one cycle of Surya kriya. Overall it was a lovely practice despite my shoulder pain.

My left shoulder pain has reduced considerably after the practices. Tot of my Rheumatoid Arthritis - lack of parameter. Can't decide what is good or bad cells.

Yea, yesterday email was an example of me creating parameters on relationship. Recently I had created parameter with S, P and teacher. Alas now its with Z.

I recalled Pe said I have healthy ego at work but totally none in relationship. I continue taking shits that others would thave stopped. She said about S and Z.  L said same about me and P. V said about teacher.
Looking back I never set any parameter with Z. I just keep quiet and suppressed my feelings. I was scared shit when I was with him. I was so sad with him and etc. but everything I keep until some little explosions here and there causing me to hang up or ignore him.
Well, its truly complete with yesterday email. The past is nothing more. Whatever need to be said is said. The mail was short but concise.
I recalled the Osho relationship card I draw yesterday that truly says it all;
Me - Consciousness
Him - Dream of lovers.
Composite - Trust with bungee jumping
Insight - Stress.

Everything is perfectly arranged for me.
Now I know the pain of RA was due to me not having parameter on Z after knowing about his wife and him coming back into my presence. It been about one month since I know.

And yesterday mail truly explain my this year Pluto Two of Hearts.
Pluto - Two of Hearts
A major goal for u this year will be to have a successful love relationship or friendship. For this reason, this is the year that u will have to make many changes within ur self in the name of love, friendship or romance.
Whether u are interested in the partner of ur dreams or just good, close friendships, u will have to take a different approach in ur life if u r to be successful in this area.
Love and intimacy requires compromise and cooperation, two of the keynotes for this card of the 'love union'
Ur intense desire for this closeness will cause u to confront some of the parts of urself that tend to keep this intimacy from u.
At times, this may seem very challenging or difficult, but it helps to keep in mind ur reasons for facing this situations - to have more intimacy in ur life.

There may be a certain person indicated by the Result card, who is the main challenge for u this year and shows u, whether intentionally or not, the changes u need to make to have the love u want. If not a person, the result card will point to other aspects of this goals or challenge that u have to put before urself this year. It is clear that u want successful relationships and are willing to work for them.

Affirmation - I create the ideal love partner. Satisfaction in my love life, my friendships, and lovers are mine to embrace.

Results - Nine of Spades
Somehow associated with ur Pluto card, this year will be the element of 'ending'. This could be death of someone u know, a job or health habits that have created the problems u may now be experiencing.
This letting go will certainly take u to a better place, a state of mind where u will be more free to live as u please.
U r ending a major chapter in ur life that will lead u to a new beginning that is just around the corner. In this process, there may be things that u have been doing for a long time that u will now let go of and stop doing. Let go and live.

Affirmation -  I learn to let go of people, lifestyle habits, and jobs that have completed their purpose in my life. They are fulfilled and I am free to move on the new and better things.

Soul
Perfect. I m learning to set parameters in relationship.