Z was truly my karmic relationship in age 42 to 48 of 7thunders card

Sept 19 aft

Insead enewsletter
The more we invest in something (financially, emotionally or otherwise) the harder to give up that investment and the more inclined we are to escalate commitment. In many cases, negative emotions, fear, anxiety, regret, even guilt or worry over past decisions, subsconciously play a part in the decision making.

Soul
Amen. Thats explains it.

Phelgm and coughing reduced. I m on way to recovery. For the first time in my life, I didn't go to see doctor for flu and cough. I am confident my body can fight this on its own.
Actually apart from joints pain due to Rheumatoid Arthritis, my only other issue was flu and cough and some skin allergy. This will be the start, I m no longer willing to have other substance other than RA pills.

Was looking out for new abridged book in my blog and saw my journal back in Aug 2010

Aug 15 Evening 2010
Father, I was reading the 7thunder cards. It was scary cos I can relate to it and think the 7 years from 42 to 48 is really true.
The Long Range is Queen of Spade (Self-Mastery),
The Pluto is King of Spade - to be a master of my work and mySelf, to take charge to be a King
Result is Jack of Spade - Spiritual-initiation and success in creative writing, karmic personal or professional rship with a younger Spade man
(Soul - Mmm, V is Spade and we now working on my website, he is my confidante. S is my cosmic lesson...; wonder what could this be?)

Soul
Yea, confirmed Z was my karmic personal relationship. He is Seven of Spades and younger than me.