Saturday, September 7, 2013

Ending the past by writing My Stories - Volume 4 in www.joyong.org

Sept 6 even
Finally finished drafting volume 4, learnings obtained during the past 8 months of getting over break up. Can close the door and start anew.

At the same time I no longer get affected by another Ten of Diamonds request. I only do what I can. How they judge me is their issue, not mine. Father, I can surely see validation issue removed.

A few hours later, some tots of past sweep in. I caught in and just focus on my breathe and see my tots; doing Samyama real time. A few moments later,  the past tots evaporated and I become present. 
I have the tool of Samyama to bring me back. No longer afraid of the past coming in. Samyama is the tool to stay in existential mode.

Osho - razor edge.
Wherever u r hiding ur ego, it is gone. Even if it comes with good intentions, don't let it come back in. And take care, because it will not leave u so easily. It is not that somebody has stolen it, it is just that in ur totality, u dropped it.
It must be looking for u, so be careful! It happens again and again: one loses the ego and the next day again it is back - with good intentions! But u simply keep the doors closed, good intentions or no intentions.
Just tell the ego, "I am finished with u." 

Soul
Father, this para exactly described my predicament. Reading this gives me hope. Infact earlier when the past comes in, at first I feel demolarised. So much work and now past comes in so easily. Then I recalled Osho said that there is only forward, no reverse gear once u found the other dimension to ur consciousness. So I told myself, it will only get better, not to worry. Meanwhile be vigilant.

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