Witness - from where the awareness arises, and where is shoots away..

Sept 24
Had a great sleep as medication stopped the coughing. But woke up around 2.40 am by coughing. Try to sleep back but coughing was persistent. Will have to take medicine later tomorrow. Accidentally switched off my 4.20 am alarm. I recalled I finally managed to sleep much later, feels good. Woke up by motor noise and I knew it is late, checked the clock it was 5.40 am.
Did Shakti and quick Shambavi. After guru pooja went into Shakti. Can go into meditation mode much easily. Tots comes in but I focus back on my practices. Not that easy cos the tots are not hurtful; just events.
Shambavi was good. Would love to do full preparatory steps. These days I like the cat stretch cos I focus on splitting the body. Suka kriya also I truly enjoy now. Towards the end just silence. Unexpectedly body went into arda Siddharna posture.

Mind still not up totally due to medicine. But I m looking forward to recovery.

Osho Adhyatma Upanishad
Now if u can do this thing - u see someone beautiful, ur awareness is drawn there. If, in that same moment, u can be aware of the bow within from where this arrow has been shot, if u can simultaneously see them both - the source from where the awareness is shooting forth and the object to which the awareness is going - if they can come both to ur attention simultaneously, then u will experience for the first time what it meant to be by witness. From where the awareness arises, from where the awareness shoots away - that source has to be found.

Achieving awareness of the second aspect is difficult. If u can manage it, becoming aware of the third aspect is easy.
The first two are the object and the subject and the third point is the witness of these two, the experiencer of these two, the seer of these two.

Soul
Samyama is listening to my breathe and concurrently listening to my mind. The third aspect is me who is listening to both.

Isha kriya states that I m not my body (breathe) and I m not even my mind (tots).

Samyama is I m watching my breathe so that means I m not my breathe and I m watching my tots so that means I m not my mind.

Samyama is the practical application of Isha Kriya.

Osho Adhyatma Upanishad
The seeker having experienced that 'I am the witness', never the doer, never the indulger - drops the feeling of 'mineness' and the desire over everything. He goes on receding within to that point beyond which it is not possible to recede anymore.

Soul
Desire here means ownership/possession/us.
Desire is not about enjoyment.

My body is feeling sick. My mind has tots and said we should rest But there is a part of me that is able to see both and decide what's best. I no longer see my tots as what I truly want and I don't always follow.