As long as I can't truly accept myself, I will remain unfulfilled

Sept 25 eve 1

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
A mirror is never polluted by reflections. No matter in how many worlds u may have been wandering, ur mirror has always remain pure and innocent.

Soul
Finally I understand the concept of mirror used in Osho tarot cards.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
The whole point is that ur consciousness within is just a mirror. Whatever u have inside, it is outside ur consciousness. Nothing has ever entered inside ur consciousness, though it feels as if it has.

As long as one does not recognise the purity of one's consciousness one is unfulfilled. One may go on doing anything, achieving anything, but all that achievement will be useless. All that is done will be undone; all the running about will be as good as drawing lines on water which disappears even before one has finished drawing them. One may go on drawing those lines again and again, but they will just keep disappearing.

Soul
Sounds so hopeless our pursuits if we cannot know our purity. Me so far away.

At the moment I only know my personality of Ace of Diamonds - low valuation resulting in openness gives me both sadness and joy. Sadness cos I m easily taken by other values and got hurt or distracted from my path. Joy cos openness to messages of Masters and willingness to walk journey in Isha despite my fear and resistance. 

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
At the end of life, at the moment of death, people who have been searching for reflections come to realize that they have been drawing on lines. Everything disappears: reputation, position, wealth, all accumulations - everything disappears. It is discovered at moment of death that one was drawing lines as though on granite but actually one was drawing on water. But it is discovered only when nothing can be done about it.

Soul
Wow! Wish I can come to that realisation.
Just now mind went to past for a split second. I can see it and bring back to present.

A just called and I shared my discovery on parameters. I told him now my journey is on self acceptance.

I started self discovery journey back in 1997. 16 years of journey.