Singing meditation

Sept 6
Woke up early morning. Then I remember is my off day, slept back with a smile.

Woke up 7.20 am. Feeling bit groggy and tot of my practices. An said its take commitment and discipline to do practices. I ponder and realised yea, cos most days I can't say I look forward. It is truly discipline.

Did 5 cycle of Surya Kriya with bliss body. It has a different feel. Will continue to do that. Breathing was lovely. Amidst the loud drilling noise from renovation. I was able to sit through contently.
Shakti was great with amazing Kapala Bhakti. The others are improving too.
Shambavi was great. Preparatory steps was enjoyable.  Suka kriya was heavenly. Aum chanting was with shaking heads. Breathe fluttering was great too. In the end after opening bandha lock, I went straight into singing. I sang non stop. Singing love songs. Hands flung out swinging like helicopter. For awhile I feel like I was flying. I was crying cos I m so happy and free. I then sing, "take me higher and higher"
I wasn't expecting this amazing finale. Throughout practices there were intermittent tots of teacher. I look at it and tot no wonder Healing card this week. I can defend myself logically. But that's not what I want. So I just let the tots come in but somehow I m not participating. After awhile it fades off. Then it come back again and fades off.

Father, thank You. I can truly see my tots are just guests.

Soul
When my tots on teacher were coming in. I know that if I used my head, I will become defensive cos logically she is not correct. But I want to move beyond my head. My peace matters more than defending myself. I know I am clear, actually no need to defend. Just let her be. I am healed.
Despite mind's attempt to disturb me, my meditation was amazing.

This week Osho card, really true. The cards are getting intuitive
Osho tarot - internal influence
Healing
With the ego, your whole being is a wound. And you carry it around. Nobody is interested in hurting you, nobody is positively waiting to hurt you; everybody is engaged in safeguarding his own wound.
You cannot touch a man of Tao. Why? - because there is no one to be touched. There is no wound. He is healthy, healed, whole. This word whole is beautiful. The word heal comes from the whole, and the word holy also comes from the whole. He is whole, healed, holy. 

Be aware of your wound. Don't help it to grow, let it be healed; and it will be healed only when you move to the roots. The less the head, the more the wound will heal; with no head there is no wound. Live a headless life. Move as a total being, and accept things. 

Just for twenty-four hours, try it - total acceptance, whatsoever happens. Someone insults you, accept it; don't react, and see what happens. Suddenly you will feel an energy flowing in you that you have not felt before.
When we are under the healing influence of the King of Water we are no longer hiding from ourselves or others. In this attitude of openness and acceptance we can be healed, and help others also to be healthy and whole.