Cheers is back...the black cloud of past few months is now gone

Sept 19
Body is getting better. Slept earlier and body woke up before 6 am. I sleep back cos today not working. Woke up at 7 am to do my practices.
Still cannot do full guru pooja as voice is still not recovered completely.
Did 5 cycles of Surya kriya. In the first cycle, the right and left elbow was bit pain.
Foot alignment has improved. And two feet nearly touching ground. Breathing was not so easy with the nose blocked.
Breathing was lovely and can see violet flame. Shakti was good too. I was able to focus despite massive drilling noise from neighbour.

Shambavi is good. Love the preparatory steps and I enjoyed Suka kriya. These days my right elbow is able to rest completely on lower chest.  So makes Suka kriya effortless.
Towards the end I was singing and dancing. Followed by silence. Moments later I can feel cheeriness slowing moving up. Not joy but cheers. It has a different feel. Almost celebrative.
I thanked all who made this possible for me.
There were some tots of past but it couldn't linger; comes and goes like cloud. Amen.
Finally I feel cheers; the dark clouds hanging over me since last December is finally gone.

Four of Hearts - Jupiter
Sign of protection in love, marriage and family. It the foundation of love upon which a family and life can be built. It is the home of heart.
Open urself up to the abundance of life.

Soul
I normally don't  get card of Fours. Even more seldom is Four of Hearts. Great I got this card today. Cheer is in now.

Yesterday when I read the Maturity card under Resolution; I felt bit sceptical. But today I felt a glimmer.
Maturity
This figure stands alone, silent and yet alert. The inner being is filled with flowers--that carry the quality of springtime and regenerate wherever he goes. This inner flowering and the wholeness that he feels affords the possibility of unlimited movement. He can move in any direction--within and without it makes no difference as his joy and and maturity cannot be diminished by externals. He has come to a time of centeredness and expansiveness--the white glow around the figure is his protection and his light.