Opening up to Sadhguru and Dhynalinga

Sept 22
I just continued reading Osho and suddenly I cried again. Then followed by laughter. My eyes all red but I feel light.

Now I realised why I exploded into massive cries when I met Sadhguru in Public talk in 2011. And why I cried whenever he said its time we liberate ourselves.
I cried because I can't open myself, I can't release my resistance. I can't make myself vulnerable.
Such irony only when I make myself vulnerable to Z despite losing him, I can then be vulnerable to public by combining website and blog together.
I then opened up to Sadhguru. When I met Sadhguru in mid 2012, Z had broken up with me the first time.
Truly never expects this breakthrough. Amen.

Alas this week Osho Internal influence tarot card is brought out.
The Rebel
The powerful and authoritative figure in this card is clearly the master of his own destiny. On his shoulder is an emblem of the sun, and the torch he holds in his right hand symbolizes the light of his own hard-won truth. 

Whether he is wealthy or poor, the Rebel is really an emperor because he has broken the chains of society's repressive conditioning and opinions. He has formed himself by embracing all the colors of the rainbow, emerging from the dark and formless roots of his unconscious past and growing wings to fly into the sky. His very way of being is rebellious - not because he is fighting against anybody or anything, but because he has discovered his own true nature and is determined to live in accordance with it. The eagle is his spirit animal, a messenger between earth and sky. 

The Rebel challenges us to be courageous enough to take responsibility for who we are and to live our truth.


Soul
So true. I found my own hard-won truth.
I will live my way.