When you choose, you are trapped

Sept 27 eve 1

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
If u make a choice, u will become entangled in the world.
The world is choosing, liberation is in non-choosing. Just do not choose!
When happiness comes, accept it; when unhappiness comes, accept it.
One who does not put forward any demand in this world becomes free of it.

Soul
Apart from having my partner, I got little demands.
Others said I m liberated. My sister told me that if anyone wants to be single and happy. They must use me as benchmark.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
U r entrapped because of the very asking; it has nothing to do with gaining it or not gaining it.
Think of the fish which does not choose either the bait or hook - and simply swims past the bait indifferently. It is impossible to catch that fish.
Be in the world like the fish which does not choose, which does not ask. Then there can be no bondage for u, u cannot be trapped.

Soul
I always knew everything we want comes with a price. I normally judge the wants based on the price. If I can't afford to pay the price, I don't want it.
Whereas Z was opposite; he looks at what he wants, he forgo the price to pay. But he endures the price. For me I would feel suffering.
With him I learn to expand a bit and become less worried about the price to pay especially when I can pay the price.

But now after learning this. And also learning that I got no parameter in personal and romantic relationship; willing to pay unnecessary price keeping the relationships. I knew I had to back off. I knew I cannot afford to pay the price.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
Whatsoever happens is accepted, what does not happen is not demanded. Such is the state of sannyas.

Soul
Mmm, maybe not. My interpretation not align as I had difficulty in going with the Flow.
Mmm, Z doesn't want not Having. And me doesn't want the Paying. Both similar. Just different ends of choice.
I don't mind not having cos I can't stand paying. That's not acceptance.
He don't mind paying cos he can't stand not having. That's also not acceptance.
Mmm, for the first time seeing we are just two sides of a coin.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
U cannot be free of the opposite of that which u have chosen; it will remain present. At the most, what can happen is that the side you have chosen may come out on top, and the side u have not chosen may remain in the bottom - but it cannot be destroyed.

Soul
Could that be it? I keep on putting all my wants into the bottom out of choice of not paying the price. So when it comes to romantic relationship, it screams for it.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
The very meaning of choosing is that we are choosing against something. And whatsoever we have chosen against will continue to follow us.

Soul
True

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
In choosing is the world, and hence I do not choose anymore. Now whatsoever happens, I accept it; what does not happen, I am not concerned by it.
Now I am willing ..., Now there is no voice of mine against existence.
Now if unhappiness comes, the right thing is happening.
If happiness comes, the right thing is happening.
Now I do not separate myself and say that it should happen only in a certain way. Now I have no expectations, demands and claims of my own. I have given up all claims.
The day one gives up all claims, choiceless awareness happens.