Body is asserting itself (2) - no hata for the day

Nov 23
Father, today for the first time I said no to hata. I just couldn't wake up. My throat hurts.
I woke up an hour later to do my meditation. It was ok. I was still feeling sleepy and when I reached office I slept another 20 minutes.

I will exercise some constraint on food. It was so much that my body couldn't take it and these days my body speaks louder and won't be ignored.

Osho
1. Issue
Travelling
Life is a continuity always and always. The journey is the goal. This indicates a time of movement or change.
The attitude of openness and acceptance invites new friends and experiences into our lives.

Soul
Well, I am changing. I am fine in my rship with Z. Less looking at goal, just be with him now.
On office, will have to work with new boss.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
The rebel
The enlightened man is the greatest stranger in the world; he does not seem to belong to anybody. No organisation confines him, no community. He is a master of his own destiny.
He has broken the chains of society"s repressive conditioning and opinions.
He has formed himself by embracing all the colours of the rainbow, emerging from the dark and formless roots of his unconscious past and growing wings to fly into the sky. He is not fighting anyone, he has discovered his own true nature and is determined to live in accordance with it.
The Rebel challenges us to be courageous enough to take responsibility for who we are and to live our truth.

Soul
Not sure what is this.

3. External influence
Morality
Morality has restricted all the juice and energy of life to the narrow confines of this woman"s mind and always ready to see every situation as black and white.

Awareness cannot do anything that is bad. Anything that comes out of awareness is simply beautiful, simply right, and without any effort and without any practice.

Our judgements, whether applied to ourselves or to others, they keep us from experiencing the beauty of godliness that lies within. Only when we break through the cage of our conditioning and reach the truth of our own hearts can we begin to see life as it really is.

Soul
Not sure. But I faced my issue with Z and now it is time to face my issue with food.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Conditioning
Unless u drop ur personality u will not be able to find ur individuality. Individuality is given by existence; personality imposed by society.

Individuality has the quality of the lion; the lion moves alone.

Take a look at urself, make a move to break out of whatever u have been conditioned by others to believe about urself.

Soul
One thing I know - I ended my issue with Z's unreachability. I now need to look at my food intake.

5. The Resolution
Suppression

Ace of Club
Strong desire for knowledge or the birth of a new idea or plan. A new beginning of some sort.

Soul
What I know is I will practice consciousness in food. I didn't realise what I tot was pleasurable is rejected by my body. It doesn't need it.

Just now I had coffee for breakfast. I just didn't like it and stopped after few sip.