Settling down with Z - opening up

Nov 1 Aft

An improvement. Z saw my msg and msg me to inform he is outstation. That's good. He can't call me back but keep me posted on his whereabouts.

Evening
Called Z around 6.25 pm and couldn't get him and I start to have attacking tots. Wanted to send him angry messages and etc. I managed to calm myself down to focus on the furniture finding.

Later he called me back as he was sleeping earlier.

He was in bit of rush to say his piece. He said he wanted to cover all the subjects.
1. He really enjoyed our meetup. He keeps on saying it was so nice. Actually he said it last week and now repeats it and that's mean he has been thinking about us, just like me.

2. He is scared when he saw my msg "love him". I said I already told him that I love him before. He said he remember but he is scared and asked if I can change 'love' to "like" instead.

I replied I love him. And I already said he is my spiritual programme for the year and I will make full use of it. I told him that I previously tot declaring my love to him will "kill" me but it didn't. It makes me stronger.

3. He asked about my msg, "With love, commitment is easy, No love, commitment is burden.
He tot it was me loving him and now asking commitment. I told him that I am not asking for commitment. He is relieved.