Settling down - in sathsang

Oct 9

Father, I felt good after sathsang. I feel light. For the first time, don't feel the need to shower, the sense of heaviness is not there.
There were some spontaneous sharing. And the two person I asked to share expanded their versions.
Today during the silence moment with Sadhguru, suddenly I was chanting Brahmananda, something I have never done before. I recalled the first time, I had loads of resistance. But now no more.

I shared with C
Her response;
You are in a good place. That's why you feel the shift within yourself!! It's really really nice to hear this from you. :))

Sadguru's blessings are with you dear. It's so nice to hear of your experience!

Soul
Yea, I am settling down.

ACIM
Wisdom is not judgement; it is the relinquishment of judgement. Therefore lay judgement down, not with regret but with a sigh of gratitude.
Now can the teacher of God rise up unburdened and walk lightly on. Yet it is not only this that is his benefit. His sense of care is gone, for he has none. He has given it away, along with judgement. He has given himself to Him Who judgement he has chosen now to trust, instead of his own. Now he makes no mistakes. His Guide is sure. And where he came to judge, he comes to bless. Where now he laughs, he used to come to weep.

Soul
Mmm, maybe this is it.

ACIM
What the world is, is but a fact. U cannot choose what this should be. But u can choose how u would see it. Indeed, u must choose this.

Soul
This is exactly what I told my boss. No matter what happened, I chose to see only happy things.
Even with Z. I just called him and couldn't reach him. I am confidently interpret he is sleeping. And I proceed to msg him. There is no negative feeling at all.

ACIM
Peace is impossible to those who look on war. Peace is inevitable to those who offer peace. How easily, then, is ur judgement of the world escaped!
It is not the world that makes peace seem impossible. It is the world u see that it impossible. Yet has God's Judgement on this distorted world redeemed it and made it fit to welcome peace. And peace descends on it in joyous answer.
Peace now belongs here, because a Thought of God has entered. The earth bows down before its gracious Presence, and it leans down in answer, to raise it up again.

Soul
Yea, I am feeling contented, at ease.
Suddenly tot of a daughter born from me and Z. Also tot of having one of his son staying with us. Our daughter would learn different dialects from our families.

South Node in Scorpio
SN in Scorpio have an inner fear that others' ideas may be right and they themselves may have to change.
There is always fear and/or excitement that accompanies great change; it's natural. And on the deepest level, these folks want change. They want to cast off the oppressive burdens that makes their lives so difficult; the know they need to be open to the flow of suggestions and knowledge from others. They are learning to see other people not as invaders but as rescuing helpers.

Soul
Yea.

SN in Scorpio
Once they decide to be open, the issue becomes one of discrimination. Their success often depends on a careful choice of whom they partner with. Not everyone is a "rescuing helper", so they need to discriminate. The key is to tune in to other person's energy field. If they tune in to the motives of the other person and feel degraded, that person probably has harmful intentions toward them or is appeasing them for personal gains.

Soul
I didn't and hence I fall into con man tactics. I went in just to expand my boundaries but alas it was wrong. I knew it wasn't right cos part of me didn't like the person.

SN in Scorpio
The right partner will spark new ideas that stimulate their own energy, creativity and excitement. There are people whom they connect very powerfully; when they become energised about a certain person, they are finally willing to relinquish outmoded values. Now they are dealing with a force that is more powerful than their values, and when they follow it, the relationship works.

Soul
This time I went into Z after discovering that he is an unpolished diamond and he was the right one. My body wants him and even respond to his voice.
He was my spiritual program for this year. He is my soul mate. And his traditional view of marriage and kids is rubbing on me.

SN in Scorpio
SN are destined to experience a total bonding with another on a one-to-one basis. The problem is that although bonding is what they most long for, at the same time they are terrified of it. They fear that if they let go of what they know, there will be nothing for them to hold on to. The irony is that when they began experimenting with new ideas, they feel less need for control because the excitement is so satisfying.

Soul
True

SN in Scorpio
These natives have an amazing capacity for bonding, owing to their ability to make others feel understood. When they listen deeply and understand the other person, their attentive listening makes the other feel loved and accepted. Their talent for listening also allows them to connect with the psychic energy of another and to bond with that person if they choose. It is this deep bonding with others that is their passport to renewal and release from stagnation.

Soul
True.

(Dec 3 - again Father delivers. Just when I am settling down on Z, Nodes came in to help me to expand further, and drop my past values that is holding me back.)