When distraught - goes back to Top 5

Oct 13
Father, today asanas were nice. It was effortless and I was laughing non-stop. I found myself enjoying the lifting leg up.

Also tot of some ideas for Isha. But this week focus is on Z.

Was reading on Z. This time I don't feel the fear and had no tots of running off. He is just being him. How his partner take it, is dependent on whether they view it personally or not.

Even now, he didn't reply msg on trip, I am fine.

Oct 13 Aft
Father, the email from teacher was quite upsetting. However, the degree that I was affected is much lower than previously. I was able to convey my tots to her without being attacking.

If this were to happen a month ago, I won't have reacted so calmly. And this time I am sharing it with the team as this is not just about me, its about us.

I cried a bit and then I ask myself is Isha in my Top 5 and the answer is No.

I checked through my Passion List
1. Self
2. Family
3. Partner
4. Sharing of tools and insights.

Isha is not in the list. And this also make me realise that instead of using my creativity for Isha as it may not be required. I should spend time to focus on my website.
At the end, my strength is originality and creation. I don't want be No.2 and I can only be No. 1.

Just received text from friend asking me not to take teacher's response badly.

My reply to her:
Thanks. M feeling better. Sometimes things happen for a reason. Her mail just remind me that I should focus my creativity on my own personal project as it is mine to create. I can only be No.1 in my own project.

Father, I always have issue with authority. And I always put up with it because I don't want to be No.1. But now I want to be No. 1. I want to create my own path. I want to lead others on my own term.

I remember the people I admire are like Oprah, Carl Jung. They create their own path and led others. They are No.1.
Isha is and always be a tool to me. I don't take it as my path. I create my own path.


Oct 13 Aft
Father, the email from teacher was quite upsetting. However, the degree that I was affected is much lower than previously. I was able to convey my tots to her without being attacking.

If this were to happen a month ago, I won't have reacted so calmly. And this time I am sharing it with the team as this is not just about me, its about us.

I cried a bit and then I ask myself is Isha in my Top 5 and the answer is No.

I checked through my Passion List
1. Self
2. Family
3. Partner
4. Sharing of tools and insights.

Isha is not in the list. And this also make me realise that instead of using my creativity for Isha as it may not be required. I should spend time to focus on my website.
At the end, my strength is originality and creation. I don't want be No.2 and I can only be No. 1.

Just received text from friend asking me not to take teacher's response badly.

My reply to her:
Thanks. M feeling better. Sometimes things happen for a reason. Her mail just remind me that I should focus my creativity on my own personal project as it is mine to create. I can only be No.1 in my own project.

Father, I always have issue with authority. And I always put up with it because I don't want to be No.1. But now I want to be No. 1. I want to create my own path. I want to lead others on my own term.

I remember the people I admire are like Oprah, Carl Jung. They create their own path and led others. They are No.1.
Isha is and always be a tool to me. I don't take it as my path. I create my own path.