Settling down with Z (18)

Nov 14
Father, the venture with LK can be considered. I just msg her to do IEO as volunteer since we r going to promote it.

Sadhguru
If u move into a higher intensity of awareness, destroying ur limitation comes naturally to u. If u becomes really aware, then everything that is not true will fall off. Only that which is true will be. Then we do not have to make u jump and do this and that.

Soul
My dream was to be a Transforming Agent. I also recalled that I said I be a Life promoter of Isha and now there is a chance to do so and get good income.

Osho
When u discover the heart, u find the doorway to the present moment. The senses become crisp and clear, a loving awareness, an acceptance, a yes to life.


Soul
When I read my Osho cards. Two tots come to mind. First is my business venture and second is Z.
Now that I calmed down, with Z it was fear, I want to escape before I go in further. Nevermind, I already set Mar 2012 as the separation date. Besides, I need to practice a bit and make sure I master it before we separate.
So, it is about the new venture. I also got a document for FB marketing, which is great. And I have a good discussion with Lk.

Nov 14 Aft
Just did my shoonya. When I closed my eyes, to my surprise I just felt happy. It was a heavy day today and I am glad I did some work yesterday.

Today talking to LK brought things clearer into focus. My advice to her is the advice to myself. I have been hesitating. I have been on 4 days week for nearly 8 months and my website nearly 1 year.

Evening
Was driving back and had tots of break up again. I used to tell myself I can't cos we haven't gone all the way. Now that we did, there is no more excuse. I told myself March is it. Then I start to become bit sad. Later I tot why am I thinking of separation when we had a real good trip. Why am I thinking of separation? Then I realised its because of fear. We have already connected and yet there doesn't seem to be a change in us. I felt a loss of control and want to take charge back. And part of me not sure if I truly want him when he seems to be spending beyond his means or rather he has no issue with having capital commitment. And I am not sure if I can feel financially secure with him. Then I stop. He is truly my mirror. We r both controller, we needed to be in charge. He loves to spend on capital items and I love to spend on misc items like food.

Now reading the Cosmic Love
Pisces (connection between me and Z)
This relationship can help u both learn how to "let go and let God".
Creating a pathway that is in alignment with events as they are unfolding can help both of u to become less judgemental, more flexible and help u surrender to the flow of unconditional love.

Aim for; Understanding and Forgiveness; trusting that a Higher Power is in charge; experiencing joy and bliss. Letting other people be themselves, accepting that which u cannot change.