Settling down with Z (9)

Oct 16
Father, our outstation trip has changed to local trip. At first I was disappointed but he is in bad financial position. Its true I can pay for the trip but he won't feel good about it.
I try to think of positive side is that we would have to get out of hotel and that's gives us a different experience to our meetup.

Father, this weekend is bit strange. I was purging since Friday till early Sunday. There is no pain but just continuous purging. Major clearing for me.

My attitude towards Z also changed somewhat. I am no longer as needy for his calls. I just left him be and when I am ready I called him. Just now I was pleasantly surprised he called me back in my second call. He told me he was engaged with someone, his customer and his plans. He is changing somewhat in terms of his communication.

Father, reading about Z's card give me the pointers on how Z can achieve his dream of Eight of Hearts, it is through responsible communication. When u love someone, communicate in the forms that matters to them. Also his telling me the whole story about the gal, gave me a good run thru. Alas I understood and he now knows what happened.

Today when C asked us to postpone the call because of M, I start to take it personally, interpreting that she doesn't think of my lead role. Then immediately I cancel the tot, firstly its great I don't have to do concall today and secondly, its also fine that I need not be the lead. I am learning fast to change my tots and hence vibrations.

ACIM
The world will end when all things in it have been rightly judged by His judgement. The world will end with the benediction of holiness upon it. When not one tot of sin remains, the world is over. It will not be destroyed nor attacked or touched. It will merely cease to seem to be.

Soul
This seems to me the lifting of veil of illusion. Alas, Z now knows he is not unlovable but his lack of communication of his emotion has brought on the separation from his wife and the inability of the gal who is crazy about him but yet unable to break up with her other suitor who is equally crazy about her as well.

ACIM
The world will end when its tot system has been completely reversed. Until then, bits and pieces of its thinking will still seem sensible. The final lesson, which brings the ending of the world, cannot be grasped by those not yet prepared to leave the world and go beyond its tiny reach.

The role of teacher of God is merely learn how to approach it, to be willing to go in its direction. He need merely trust that, if God's Voice tells him it is a lesson he can learn, he can learn it. He does not judge it either as hard or easy. His Teacher points to it, and he trusts that He will show him how to learn it.

Soul
I have always follow the Teacher but this time it was difficult and I need faith.

ACIM
The world will end in joy, because it is a place of sorrow. When joy has come, the purpose of the world has gone.
The world will end in laughter, because it is a place of tears. Where there is laughter, who can longer weep?
And only complete forgiveness brings all this to bless the world.
To turn hell into Heaven is the function of God's teachers, for what they teach are lessons in which Heaven is reflected.

Now sit down in true humility, and realise that all God would have u do, u can do. His Will be done. And u be thankful it is so.

Soul
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