Security from accumulation or breaking limitation

Nov 27
Father, didn't take my RA pills for a few days and joints are hurting. And I had not been meditating for a few days too But today I had a swim and my inner joy bubbles into laughter and I felt good again.

Suddenly tot of me and Z.


Soul
This morning in the pool, I saw an older lady, someone in mid fourties and a man who looks slightly younger with their daughter. I also think the lady is courageous not to dye her hair.
I tot of me and Z.

Nov 27 eve
SN in Scorpio

6. Accepting help
They insist on doing everything their way to validate themselves through their own efforts.
Unfortunately, it is bottomless pit. In this incarnation, they can never sufficiently build their sense of self-worth - on their own - to feel good about themselves.
Others want to help them if they only accept it. This takes the humility to let others in and the willingness to release sole ownership.

Soul
I am beginning to see this. No wonder I felt bit defensive when P said that I should learn to delegate.

SN in Scorpio
There are 2 kinds of security:
1. The security of owning so many material possessions that one is insulated from change;

2. The security of having grown beyond personal limitations to gain a sense of power.

From the second position, personal security is also ensured - because regardless of what changes occur, one is secure, confident and powerful inside oneself.

And for these to occur, SN in Scorpio need the expertise of others and the personal humility to appreciate that others may be bringing them a knowledge that could be more valuable than anything they had in the past.

Soul
I have been obtaining security in 1 and now start in 2.