Settling down with Z (13)

Nov 5
Father, had a good session with my close friends, B and J. We have a good time. For the past few years, I no longer give advice or dominate, I am just one of them. It feel good and I don't feel drained.

Ruling Pluto Card (my Second karma card)
Nine of Diamonds
You will be confronted with financial outlays of one kind or another and these may truly tax your sense of prosperity and financial well being. You will have to let go of some money.
The only attitude that will help u retain peace of mind is that letting go and having faith u will be provided for by the universe.
Soul
Yea, I have recently spend 10k on laser surgery for my eyes. And then car air cond broke down, another 1.2k and now renovation and furnishing at 20k.

Anyway, what I realised is that I am fine spending values on my body, but not find spending it externally. What I spend on my body like food and etc, cannot be seen. Hence I don't really see what I spend on. Ah ha, I just realised I am a sensual person and physical is important to me, but not external.

Tot of Z and at times I brought him up and sometimes I stopped myself. I wonder what he is doing. But I no longer project that he misses me and hence won't give myself false excuse to call him. These days I will call only when I want to, no more thinking that he miss me.

Today swimming was great. For the first time I was able to adjust when the 'fast" guy swim towards me. I just focus on my strokes and did not panic. I am no longer affected by others. I felt such contentment.

Cosmic Love
Soul and Z's composite North node in Pisces
This relationship can help you both learn how to "let go and let God".
Creating a pathway that is in alignment with events as they are unfolding can help both of u to become less judgmental, more flexible and help u surrender to the flow of unconditional love.

Aim for;
Understanding and forgiveness;
Trusting that a Higher Power is in charge;
Experiencing joy and bliss;
Letting other people be themselves;
Accepting that which u cannot change.

Soul
Yeap, all my 3 challenge cards are being activated.
1. Seven of Heart - unconditional love
2. Seven of Clubs - understanding
3. Seven of Spades - trust and faith.

Composite chart
11th house
The key to maximising the potential in this partnership is to recognise and remain aware that it offers the special opportunity to experience the joys and benefits of a relationship with someone who can also be ur best friend.
U create plenty of energy to work together towards humanitarian goals.
The shared dreams of benefiting others energizes u both.

If a conflict should arise, the best approach would be:
Treat the other person as an equal and ask for their input as a friend.
Brainstorm with them in order to see the situation more objectively.
Be interested in what is best for them, encourage them in realising their own life dreams.

Soul
Amen. I know I can do it for Z. But I am not sure if Z can do for me.