SN in Scorpio - issue in receiving

Oct 10 Aft
South Node in Scorpio
They have a talent for offering encouragement, enthusiasm and support to the other person, which heals the other person and makes his or her life easier. The other person senses a soul mate and a source of strength in the SN person and responds with love, appreciation and gratitude.

However, when others reciprocate by asking SN people what they need, they may close down and act as if "everything's under control". But they need to allow others to see their situation and suggest ways to make their lives easier. Its reciprocal.

They only know how to see themselves as givers or receivers. They are totally unaware of the reciprocal process of how to receive through giving - how they get back an energy that enriches them and helps them grow.
For eg, if they volunteer for a charity event, in their mind, it is simply a matter of giving their time and energy to make the event successful. They may miss the reality of what they are getting out of it.

Soul
So true. No wonder my heavy feeling for sathsang. Alas, yday, I felt light. I am happy to see them happy.
Also, on having children, I only see the price to pay, which is the giving, I couldn't see the receiving.
With my family, I am receiving and recently giving back.

South Node in Scorpio
Empowering Others
Because SN have spent many past lives building a sense of self-worth, they are astonished when others around them do not recognise their own value. They don't understand it when others don't appreciate their own natural abilities and do what's needed on a practical level to use their talents and feel good about themselves.

(Dec 6 - yea, I have always work on my strenght and become successful. I seldom work on my weakness and I assumed everyone does it. Years later, I found out others are working on improving their weakness and hence cannot be successful)

Their greatest challenge lies in successfully empowering their partners or those in other close personal rship.

SN is primarily motivated by money and comfort and they assume everyone else is too. They also have talent at uncovering the hidden desires and drives of others.

SN are learning to be less attached to worldly things so that they can be free to soar in spiritual realms and enjoy their psychological/astral connection with others. This is a whole new realm of pleasure beyond the strictly physical enjoyment they are accustomed to from past lives and it requires releasing attachment to the material plane.

Soul
I have done that.

Soul
Mmm, tot of Z. I guess I also didn't empower my younger brother.



Oct 10 Eve
Father, today Nine of Spades. Not sure what. I am happy for boss who finally let go.

On Z, despite no reply from him on my nite sms. I proceeded to plan for our trip. My mind made some noise, but I ignored it.

Father, I am feeling down. I am so good at giving people pep talk. What about me? Who gave to me. Why am I feeling down?