Z's South Node in Leo and my South Node in Scorpio

Oct 17

Father, Z's challenge is to be happy for himself. To pursue what makes him happy regardless of people's view. To be an individual.
His life path - is to follow his inner child. The inner child is the sense of having fun, the sense of play, of taking a risk and doing something that makes them happy.

I am an individual, I have always know and do what makes me happy. Its always about myself. My challenge is to create happiness for other people. Guess, that's why it had to start with a relationship.

All my life I avoided what makes me unhappy. So, I stay fine. But now I work towards what makes me happy.

Father, suddenly a tot occurred to me. I used to think he was an arrogant bastard for not being considerate, not realising how much he hurt me by waiving of my attachment to him. But now, I am not sure. His chart says he lacked connection to inner child, which is emotion. He downplayed even his attraction for me. He downplayed his need for a woman in his life.
Since he cannot connect with his inner child, he assume others are the same. No wonder he is not able to give the emotional bonding that his partners required.

SN in Leo - Z
Attributes to develop
1. Individuality
2. Willingness to take 'center stage'
3. Following one's heart's desires
4. Strengthening one's willpower
5. Enthusiasm
6. Self-confidence
7. Taking risks
8. Relating to the childlike quality in others
9. Enjoying life - having fun
10. Looking at life as a game
11. Developing an "It's up to me" attitude.

Tendencies to leave behind
1. Yielding to peer pressure in order to "belong"
2. Detaching from emotional situations
3. Aloofness
4. Waiting for others to prompt one's own action
5. "Overlooking" what's really going on
6. Waiting for "more" knowledge before taking action
7. Excessive daydreaming
8. Running away from confrontations.

SN in Scorpio - Soul
Attributes to develop
1. Self discipline
2. Choosing constructive change
3. Releasing whatever causes stagnation and low energy
4. Eliminating non-useful possessions
5. Enjoying things without having to own them
6. Accepting support from others (ideas, money, opportunities)
7. Enjoying high-risk situations that make one feel alive
8. Awareness of others' psychology (their desires, wants, needs and motives)
9. Openness to partnering, supporting and merging power with others.

Tendencies to leave behind
1. Attachment to comfort and the status quo - still working
2. Possessiveness - haven't touch yet
3. Over-concern with accumulation and ownership - have achieved somewhat
4. Questioning past decisions - still working
5. Stubbornness - have achieved somewhat
6. Getting bogged down in sensual appetites - still working
7. Repeatedly doing things one way (the hard way) even though another way is easier - have achieved somewhat
8. Resistance to change and others' input - have achieved somewhat.