Settling down with Z (6)

Oct 12 Aft (Osho)

Father, he didn't reply my msg.
The real reason I cannot write the mail for u is because I don't have the right to do so. Its between u and ur ex. Who am I? If I am ur ex, I wouldn't want anyone else to barge in too. That's why I said its personal. U can chk with ur partner, B. If he can writes for u, I also write. :)

These days, I am no longer bothered cos I know he read it. He is an indirect person. When he doesn't have an immediate answer, he won't reply. Also, I knew he read them.

Father, he is my spiritual program for the year.

1. Issue
The Fool
A fool is one who goes on trusting.
Whatsoever experience comes to u, let it happen and then go on dropping it. Go on cleaning ur mind continuously; go on dying to the past so u remain the present, herenow, as if just born.
Ur action may appear 'foolish' to others, or even to urself, if u try to analyse them with the rational mind. But the 'zero' place occupied by the Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.

Soul
Firstly, this is similar to Seven of Spades, Faith card. Secondly, this is regards to Z. I do ask myself, why I continue? But somehow, the only reason is I love him and he is a good man. I know he is my Cosmic Lesson and I trust he will treat me kind and whatever outcome, I will be fine as he is my spiritual program (Pluto) card for the year.

2. Internal influence
Awareness
Mind can never be intelligent. Only no mind is intelligent. Mind is burdened by the memories of the past, burdened by the projections of the future, u go on living - at the minimum. U don't live at the maximum.

Once u start dropping tots, the dust u have collected in the past, the flame arises - clean, clear, alive and young. Ur whole life becomes a flame, and a flame without any smoke. That is what awareness is.

The veil of illusion that has been keeping u from perceiving reality as it is, is starting to burn away. Any sense that u might have been groping in the dark is dissolving now, or will be dissolving soon.
Let urself settle and remember that deep inside u, r just a witness, eternally silent, aware and unchanged. It will help u become detached

Soul
So many things happen externally, at work and even Z is changing. But I find myself not clamouring for it. I just take the change easy. Not expecting. I just continue to do my part.

3. External influence u r aware
Courage
This card shows a small wildflower that has met the challenge of the rocks and stones in its path to emerge into the light of day.
Surrounded by an aura of bright golden light, it exposes the majesty of its tiny self. Unashamed, it is equal to the brightest sun.

Soul
Yea, it was so arduous but I face the challenge and grow into the flower that I am.
Thanks for all Ur Help.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Ripeness
Now is always the time, and the fruit is always ripe.
When the fruit is ripe, it drops from the tree by itself. One moment it hangs by itself, next moment it falls - not because it has been forced to fall or has made the effort to jump, but because it has recognised its ripeness and simply let it go.

Soul
True. Not sure how but I know my rship with Z has changed. I know I have changed. I am detached from my surroundings. I no longer take things personally. I am less inclined to take everything Z said seriously. I just let him be.

5. Resolution
Totality
Developing the knack of being total in responding to whatever comes, as it comes, is one of the greatest gift u can give urself. Taking one step through life at a time, giving each step ur complete attention and energy, can bring a wondrous new vitality and creativity to all that u do.

Soul
Amen.

Oct 12 Eve
ACIM
When the son of man becomes the Son of God; it is a change of mind. Nothing external alters, but everything internal now reflects only the Love of God. God can no longer be feared, for the mind sees no cause for punishment.

Awareness of dreaming is the real function of God's teachers. They watch the dream figures come and go, shift, change, suffer and die. Yet they are not deceived by what they see.