Opening to change (2)

Nov 3 aft
Father, I am bit off and use a wrong road for lunch. Now have to eat something that I am not so keen. But doable.

Father, I felt heavy. Guess I feel pressured that I only got 1 day on Tue to work. Anyway, no worries. I think can complete my work. Today just focus on the 2 reports. My heart is beating.
What am I truly disturbed at? The cv.

SN in Scorpio
They need to pledge themselves to someone who genuinely values the vitality of mutual change and growth. The native's commitment must be to creating something with their partner, not just to the person themselves. When the two of them agree to create together is the commitment that will generate reciprocity and feelings of closeness over time. It could be a family, a business, a project, a cause and etc. The result will be a relationship where the native doesn't feel trapped and where the vitality and intimacy creates happiness and fulfillment for both partners.

My msg to Z.
I just realised why I love u. Its because I feel so free with u. I feel u accept me totally and I can be my true self with u. :)

Soul
I can be with him cos I don't feel trapped. And he doesn't trap me because I am not the one. Anyway, let's stay put. I am targeting Mar 2012 as the cut off.
Mmm, I wanted to wait till the bonding. But reading the book on SN, made me realise when I bond, it becomes an emotional bonding. Perhaps subconsciously I knew it. But I am ready.

(Dec 17 - we have bonded and I felt more secure of him now. Surprisingly, I felt less attachment too.)

SN in Scorpio
Soul Mate relationship is an intense flow of energy from one person to the other and back again. It is this reciprocal gift of support and acknowledging each other's specialness that leads to mutual transformation. That's what these native are searching for - and are scheduled to experience in this lifetime.

Soul
Z energise me. What I want to create with him is happiness for both of us.

SN in Scorpio
They are born with a strong attachment to an ongoing, stable situation. They are stubborn. Their first repsonse to a new idea - to change is "No".
Sensual connection - touch and good food help them to relax and be more open.
They are willing to make changes if they think it will increase their level of comfort or maintain a dependable, happy status.

Soul
Quite true. Perhaps that's why I am disturbed over the new job. But there is a part of me that said this is a real regional job vs the one offered by E. I am fine working with V. I want to do more business role rather than reporting role.

SN in Scorpio
Transformational Energy is a barometer of being "on track"

To rid themselves of the stagnancy of patterning resulting from past lives, they need to make choices that lead to personal transformation, growth and expansion beyond their current limit.

(Dec 17 - the right offer is from E and not V. The one from V is not forthcoming.)


Nov 3 Eve
I felt much better after shoonya/samyama. I calmed down.

ACIM
All concepts of ur brothers and urself; all fears of future states and all concerns about the past, stem from injustice. Here, is the lens which, held before the body's eyes, distort perception and brings witness of the distorted world back to the mind that made the lens and holds it very dear. "Sins" are perceived and justified by careful selectivity in which all tot of wholeness must be lost.

Salvation is God's justice. It restores to ur awareness the wholeness of the fragments u perceive as broken off and separate. And it is that overcomes the fear of death.

Pray for God's justice and do not confuse His mercy with ur own insanity. Perception can make whatever picture the mind desires to see.

Remember this. In this lies either heaven or hell, as u elect. God's justice points to heaven because it is entirely impartial. Here all attack and condemnation becomes meaningless and indefensible. Perception rests, the mind is still, and lighter. Vision is now restore.