Sathsang is a meeting with your own Truth

Nov 13

Father, today walk was quite fine and I can hear my tots process. Some tots of office, some of Z and others. It was going round and round.

Evening
Sathsang didn't go well and teacher has loads of comments on set-up, which I am glad. I have been feeling frustrated that the sathsang responsibility lies on me. They don't seem to take it seriously and they think I over-react. I normally had to ignore it cos I want to focus on getting my energy right.
I told teacher, I don't want to be sathsang guide. I really enjoyed sitting there and its a real volunteering for me to be a sathsang guide. Teacher said she understood as she too prefers to sit there but no one wants to do the 'dirty job'. So, looks like she may have failed with C.

She said that she wants me to meet Sadhguru. I immediately said "That's a scary tot". She was surprised. I then tone down and said yeah, next time. Father, I have no plans to meet Sadhguru. It be too scary. I am not ready for him to see through me. To know that I am not yet willing to bring out what I experienced within. Some parts of me still clinging to the old me.


Just had a good session with LK. I told her that I like to work with her in marketing IEO.

She also tot of this:
Joy Business by Joy Ong. Speak about Joy for business world. The corporate need that kind of topic ....

(Dec 18 - I think I need to rise further in my career to include regional exposure, then I can show others how meditation helps us in everyway. So, I am not off-track. It is still on.)

Soul
Something to ponder as this was the same line of tot that H has told me years ago. Mmm, its great that H said she is freed up next year. So, I now have L, H and counsel by V.

(Dec 18 - H said she can only edit my writing and nothing else. She has her own dream to pursue, being a lecturer. Another indication that I was right to take the regional job, just go with the flow.)

It is quite ironic, the Nine of Diamond said that if I learn to let go of money flowing out, new avenues will comes in. Today, I finally said yes to the bathroom renovation and settled my wardrobe. I go for wood cover as the plastic cover looks bit 'cheap". Also, its dark brown is not as great looking as the one I saw in the complex's toilet.

Father, like I told LK, I am ready to move on. I am financially secured and have off time to pursue my new venture. And I told her she now need to nego for that too.

Sadhguru
The only thing that lies between the human and the divine, the finite and the boundless, the seeking and the finding, is choice.
Choice is not the acquisition of any path-breaking wisdom, but a determined refusal to strengthen one's ignorance, to reinforce one's deceptions, to 'gold-plate' one's limitation.

Soul
That's me now. I want to let go of my attachment to money.

Sadhguru's Sathsangh
Sathsangh means we want to communicate with that which is true;
To be in touch with truth, we do not have to go to the core of the galaxy, because the core of a human being is also the same thing. U want to perceive yourself.
The very process of sathsang means that u go into a state of where u do not exist. U cease to exist as a person. U stop identifying with urself so that the subjectivity becomes everything. There is nothing to perceive. U simply sit there. This is the very basis of everything that u called
spiritual.

In order to be this way, u need to be in a certain presence. If u just sit here and completely strip urself of everything that u identify urself with -and if u manage to throw everything down - then u will see there is no such thing as "me", but there is a huge presence. There is a tremendous, overwhelming presence. Unless a person experiences this presence, he has not taken any spiritual steps in his life yet. Maybe he is thinking of spirituality - simply thinking and hesitating all the time.

Sathsang, in its ultimate sense, means that u surrender the wall that u have built.

Soul
This is exactly what I said about Sathsang in the newsletter. A place whereby I can just open and dissolve. A safe cocoon whereby I have a special date with my Self.

Sadhguru's Sathsang
It is not that sathsang has to happen in a particular room or a hall. For those who are willing, it is happening all the time.

Soul
Yea, I just close my eyes and I dissolve. In the swimming pool, I connect with the water and I am dissolved.
Father, thank U. I have been wondering about my meditative mode. Looks like I just become more willing to Life.

Amen.